Dealing with Death, Sickness and Flares
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Ok, well some of y'all may realize I haven't been on here in a while. There has been so much going on that sparking has not been possible. It has been a sad and trying time.
First of all, I had a cousin who was very sick. She was the same age as me, 54. I consider this a relatively young age. She needed a liver transplant but they finally decided her heart wasn't strong enough to make it thru the procedure. While her Mom and the rest of the family was trying to come to terms with this news and preparing for the inevitable, her brother, my other cousin, passed away in the middle of the night by a heart attack. no one was prepared for this and my aunt, God Bless Her, was totally devastated. She was dealing with much guilt, thinking she had neglected him. I feel, he wouldn't have added extra worry to her, even if he knew something was wrong. So, she had to make his funeral arrangements and had to wait on her daughter to pass as well so she could bury them together. This took a period of 9 more days. This was very heartbreaking to us all. On my birthday, I buried both of my cousins who I was very close with growing up. My Aunt had to bury her oldest son and her baby girl (and the only girl). So sad and It was a devastating time for the whole family.
Afterwords, I got sick with a virus and had to quit my embrel injections for 2 weeks. I had been starting to feel much better before that. Let me tell you what... I realized how much those injections were actually helping when I had to stop them. It was a real trial, dealing with a virus, then my body flaring back up so quickly and in such pain. The injections didn't kick in and start working as quickly this time around as the time before. but they are starting to work again now. For a while, I've been in a major flare, unable to do alot. I'm very happy they are working again. I didn't want to take these injections when the Dr. first prescribed them but I must admit, they've really made a difference. I also had to go around and around with the insurance but I think I've finally gotten that straightened out and so far I haven't had to pay for it. I hope this continues or I shall be in bad shape because we sure can't afford this medication.
Life has stepped in and deterred me from my journey and my friends. I'm back now and look forward to continuing in a positive and forward direction. I've missed All my Sparklers and I hope y'all are pushing thru and staying positive. Sending Hugs to You ALL!