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a new year....

Thursday, January 03, 2013

There were times this last year I had to wonder if I'd see 2013....I mean the Myans didn't think so now did they and you have to wonder even if it's just somewhere in the back of your mind don't you?

2013 is now here and It's not starting out quite how I'd like, but it is how I expected. I have had relatives here for far too long and I just need to get back into my own groove. Don't get me wrong it has been AMAZING having my sister here visiting, but I miss being able to hop on my bike or my elliptical and get all nasty sweaty if I want to without someone watching me do it. I am not thin like my sister nor have I beaten the battle with the bulge as my mother has and it's intimidating working out in front of them. It's also not easy because no one else the house seems to support me anymore and they used to. I'm tired, I don't feel good most of the time lately and I just want to curl up and sleep for days on end until everyone has gone home....
tomorrow I take my sister to the airport and I am so going to miss her. My mom on the other hand will be missed, but I need her to go home. She cooks with butter ALL the time, is making tons of doughy, sweet things that need to get out of my house before my stomach explodes. My 'fat' jeans are now snug in the tummy and that about made me want to cry. This is now how I envisioned my year ending or how I wanted to see my year start either. It all just needs to stop and return to normal.
When they are all gone I will regain ME time. Or at least that is what I keep telling myself.
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    hang in there.... you will learn to create your own "me" time no matter what the circumstances for Your own peach of mind.... emoticon emoticon
    3052 days ago
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