Why is this so hard...

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

It has been almost a month since I got off track. I was going to the gym almost every day, sometimes twice a day. I was doing great. I was focused. And then the holidays came rolling around and BOOM...I crash. And I start to miss a few days. Then I get sick and miss several days. And then work events, kid events, family gatherings, etc all become more important that the hour I need to work on me. And of course I swore I would get right back into it. And I have...a little bit. But I cant seem to build myself back up to where I was. I cant seem to force myself to get in the gym every single day. It is like I just dont want to, EXCEPT I DO WANT TO!! So what is it exactly that holds me back?? Laziness? Lack of focus? Lack of energy? Fear of failure? Fear of success? I mean, I want this so bad right? So why is it sooo hard for me to do?

I do not have the answers. I dont know why I am struggling. I do know that previously all those little distractions would have made me give up all together. So at least this time I am still going. I just need to go more. I just need to stick to the schedule I plan no matter what my mind is telling me. I need to push til it becomes habit all over again. Aggghh. This is the part I hate. Starting all the way back over. Well sorta. It is not all the way back over. Maybe that little piece right there...the part where I did not stop going completely...maybe that is the piece that will make this work for me. I did not give up, and so I am just progressing instead of beginning.

Ok, I am done for now. :)
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    You are not starting over you have learned things along the way. Figure out what will work for you and do it without questioning yourself. You will find a way back on track.

    I am pulling for you.
    3111 days ago
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    I am going through the same thing right now. I said I would get back on track after the holiday and I did briefly but then I wasn't feeling well. This week between not feeling well and my family's needs I haven't been able to get back to my gym schedule. Just remember that it will work out if you are committed to it. It all comes from inside. Just keep committing to it and it should work out.

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    3114 days ago

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  • no profile photo CD11325901
    I've walked in your shoes and wondered the exact same thing! Knowing what's good for me and doing what's good for me seemed like 2 different things. It's almost as if our bodies have to have a "pause" on the way down to "perfect" to balance things. I try not to be to judgemental, call myself too many degrading names, eat too many calories and stop exercising for too long though.
    Make a plan for tomorrow, beginning to end, and then work that plan. Often I trick myself into the gym or out for a walk by saying "I'll only go for 10 min. then I'm done. By the time 10 minutes are up, I'm wanting to do more! So I do! Same thing with food. Make it beautiful, Make it tasty and Make it low-cal. Just for that one scheduled day and you'll find that you will want to do it everyday (or at least 5 out of 7 wink wink).
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    3114 days ago
    I am trying to stay motivated as well. It's not easy and I'm torn in many directions.
    3114 days ago
  • METIS457_79
    For what my opinion is worth, you need to ask yourself if what you were doing before is something you are willing to do for the rest of your life. I did that going to the gym every day thing for a year and lost a ton of weight, but now I'm right back to where I was. I wasn't willing to go to the gym every day of my life. Maybe that's just me.

    You shouldn't beat yourself up though. It doesn't get you anywhere! You learned something about yourself through all this. Focus on that and make your next move with a little bit more knowledge about yourself.
    3114 days ago
    I go through the same peaks and valleys. As cliche and unhelpful as it sounds, i think the motivation has to come from within. Only you know the reason why you are doing this. For me, its setting goals or buying something like new running shoes or joining challenges, getting involved with my teams. And sometimes I just have to not think about it and get it done. Just go through the motions until I'm in the middle of it.

    I've been really passionate about eating "real food" unprocessed food. Since I've been getting informed about that, its been really eye-opening and motivating in so many ways. Maybe check out some food documentaries. I watched one recently called Hungry for Change that had a huge impact on me. I can give you some more titles if you want. But like i said, thats just what works for me.

    I think the important thing is just to keep trying. One of these times it will click. Keep getting back up. I've started over more times than i could ever count. I still have a long way to go. But I'm 50lbs lighter than i was when i started so i must be doing something right.
    3114 days ago
  • 1935MARY
    Cheer up it is easy to get off track, harder to get back on track. Maybe you were burning your self out before and your body is telling you to slow down for awhile. I was walking and I joined curves, so I was going to curves 3 times a week and walking 2. Then I quit walking and just doing curves. Last week I was thinking why did I quit walking, I enjoyed walking in the park. I added it back, but since I hadn't walked ,I couldn't walk as much ,so slowly I am building it up. I guess what I am trying to say,don't try to throw yourself back in full swing, add back to it slowly and you will be back to where you was. If you don't enjoy it. That can be the problem, find the joy in what you are doing and it will come easy. Good luck and never give up. Find the balance. emoticon
    3114 days ago
    I think you have done the hardest part. You recognize that you have a problem! Goodluck with your journey and getting back on the track that you want to be on.
    3114 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13333753
    Don't think of it as starting over! We all have our set backs and rough patches. I know for me, when I start to slip and start having the mind set that I'll just be starting over, I just let myself slip even more. Keep thinking of how badly you want this and push yourself to keep going, to pick up where you left off. You've been doing a great job and have seen success. You can do this!!!!!

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    3114 days ago
    I have found that scheduling my workouts in the morning has helped. It's far too easy to let other things take priority if I do it later in the day.

    Above all, don't beat yourself up. You said it yourself, even though you got off track, you have a different focus now that you've had a taste of success. Maybe re-setting some fast break goals would also re-energize your motivation.

    Good luck! I'm cheering for you!
    3114 days ago
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