Book status.... Leavin it all on The Wall
Thursday, June 06, 2013
Last night I was feein so freakin determined!!! I tracked every single thing I've ate, Kicked ass in both classes, downed 14 cups of water and Im feelin so proud of myself - in honor of national running day yesterday the (fabulously amazing 50yr old!!!!) instructor had us run outside. I am not a runner, never have been - my lungs hate it, but I have wanted to do a color run all year so I've told myself I need to start. We ran in Monday too so I told myself however long we were going for I was going run the whole way even if it was just jogging. Turns out it was about 1.3 miles aaaaaand managed to run the whole thing w/o stopping! I wanted to walk so bad but I was like finding nemo - I literally kept repeating out loud to myself 'just keep running'. I legit had to pep talk my way thru the end of the run - almost like asthma attack status but I took my water w me.
Also, does anyone watch extreme makeover: weightloss edition??? If u have a chance to, watch it on hulu.com - such a great motivational show! The new season started a cpl weeks ago & the new one aired tuesday night... Idk what it was about the girl, Meredith, but the things she said keep playing in my head over n over. She was 24 n weighed 314lbs to start. For her 1st workout w the trainor (Chris Powell - who is also awesome) they were on a beach n she had to run in sand. She kept saying "I can do this and I want this!" and for some reason those words struck a nerve w me. At one point she said to the camera 'I love running - well actually, I hate running but I love how accomplished I feel after' - that is exactly how I feel!
I could recap the whole thing but ill spare u that...
Yesterday morning I was 133.1 - 26.1bmi, I'm 5'0" so I'm not exactly thrilled but I also need to stop making excuses for myself. I buy cookies and mini Reese's and 'let myself' have them (while simultaneously feeling guilty about it) and tell myself that I have them in my sleep - straight up denial. I munch on my hubby's skittles or chips or whatever when he has them. Exercise I have no issues w - I do 4hrs of KB n 2 hrs of Zumba every week but I'm pretty much over my eating status cuz I've been doing this for a while. And then I wonder y I'm not at my goal weight after 4years of 'trying'!