Tuesday, August 20, 2013
first i want to thank everyone who took the time to comment and leave me some real good advice on my last blog........ if you read it i spoke of a neck/shoulder injury that i THOUGHT was getting better. last week when i woke up i couldnt move. was angry and said to myself im fine im gonna "shake it off" it was a day before leaving for vacation and i didnt want to ruin that ... well not so much ended up leaving vacation earliy and coming home going to the doctor 3 days later because i couldnt use my left arm and hand (and im left handed!!!!!) sent me for MRI of my neck and shoulder. i have 2 discs that are messed up and are compressing some nerves i have arthritis in my neck as well and tendonitis and bursitis and arthritis in my shoulder and they scheduled me to see a surgeon.
needless to say the 5lb weight gain i talked about is now up to 10lbs. i have a ton of thoughts running through my head i really dont want surgery. but now im scared to exercise or move because my arm/shoulder hurts so bad. cant really lift or move or swing it. i know i should eat right but my emotions are nuts and im eating everything in sight that i shouldnt be eating.im stuck in a horrible rut of all kinds of crazy feelings. i start my morning eating healthly trying to start my day with positive thoughts but by the middle/end of the day my mind wanders and i just start eating whatever i can get my hands on. i have to get my mind right before my weight gets out of control..... i was thinking of looking into holistic medicines to try to avoid any surgeries or to try to help the pain. if anyone has any suggestions i would greatly appreciate it. thank you for listening