I need to let go.
Wednesday, October 02, 2013
Well this is the second day and I am still working to figure this out. I was told to take time off work but after talking to my boss (who is AWESOME ) this after noon I went to see my doctor and had my restrictions lifted. so I am back at work for now. I need to learn to let go and accept I need to take care of me first but I can not let him down and cause him to stress out (he just back from a major heart attack) . My doctor agreed to this only if I work hard to stay relaxed and follow everything she says from here o out.
I have followed the calorie ranges today although I am starving lol . I am going to do the stationary bike for 15 min tonight. I am reading up on the gastric bypass surgery they want me to do. They assured me it wasn't for the weight loss but to get my diabetes , blood pressure congestive heart failure under control . I have read some scary things about the surgery so if anyone can give me positive feed back on this I would be grateful or if you know a good website even. I am going to start he cardiac rehab and work on getting my strength up and blood pressure down more. I start a new medication line from 7 meds to 18 meds sucks but I know I am the one to blame I abused myself with alcohol and drugs and the with food . I know I can do this , I have to do this. Thank You for the support and for letting me vent.