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It happened today

Monday, October 07, 2013

The day I was dreading!!!! Normally, I can handle the stress around me. Normally, I can count to 10 and defuse the situation that is blowing up. But today, I don't know why, all my defense mechanism's gave out. Suddenly, I couldn't handle the stress, everything I said was wrong, taken out of context, thrown back in my face. I tried offers of help and they were refused, I tried suggestions to make her feel better and they wouldn't work. I offered to take her for a ride around, just to get her out and that wasn't good enough. Since being here in July it hasn't happened. I have been able to work things out, and today finally I snapped!! Now, 3 Kit Kat Bar's and 3 Nestle Crunch Bar's and 2063 calories later, and I am wondering what have I done????? Tonight I will do 30 min on the exercise bike, to try to make up for it, and pray I haven't done too much damage to the progress I have made. And after a good long cry tonight, when everyone else goes to bed, I will go to sleep resolved to start again tomorrow and refuse to let someone bring me to the point where I lose control over choices I make. It didn't help the day, for the moment it tasted good, and I felt good eating it, but now, am in tears over it -- not worth it any longer. I had been posting my calories and fat and protein intakes as an accountability thing for one of the groups I am in... and I thought I can't post this... then I thought, I post the good days, I have to take accountability for today, so it is posted for all to see. Thankfully tomorrow is a new day. And a new start. Praise God for that.
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    Bad days are like rainy days they come come and go, unless you live in Seattle :) Good on you for posting those few extra calories. In the long run your honesty will pay off in a stronger you. Hoping things work out. emoticon
    2776 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    But We Keep On Going! emoticon
    2776 days ago
    emoticon Best wishes!!
    2778 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13391335
    emoticon Tomorrow is another day!! Best wishes!
    2778 days ago
    You are so right; tomorrow is a new day and a new beginning. O.K. - you overdid with the eating today; you are picking yourself up and moving forward. Good for you!!!!
    2778 days ago
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    2778 days ago
    DLYNN.....I am participating in my group challenge, and that was to find a blog to comment on. I picked yours. You know that people come and go and maybe someone comes into your life for a reason.

    I've had my bad days too. Everyone does. No one is exempt from the stresses in life. We just have to chose to handle them. Today you chose the best comfort, chocolate. Chocolate actually has some very good endorphins...well the dark chocolate has more, but you were choosing a basic comfort food.
    The worst thing that you can do is "beat yourself up " over your food choices. That will do more harm to you than the chocolate or the calories. You just have to say...well today I made these food choices, and tomorrow I will do better.
    Be blessed :)
    2778 days ago
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