Monday, December 16, 2013
So as anyone who reads my blog knows my mom was recently diagnosed with breast cancer on top of the fact that my dad passed away in early October. Well my mom lives three hours away and has been seeing doctors in preparation for deciding which course of treatment to take with regard to this cancer. She has seen 5 different doctors and basically been told 5 different things in one respect or another. I found out today some crap this one doctor told her that she did not tell me about before and when I asked her why she didn't tell me she said it's because I am "too busy" for her. I cannot begin to express how I do not enjoy this guilt trip she is putting me on. I love my mom, but this is also a really terrible time for me to just shut the rest of my life off and deal with her stuff...it's not easy to take care of her from 3 hours away when I have a job I really love and can't really afford to just quit and 5 kids, 3 dogs, and 2 cats, plus a home to manage. Can you say frustrating? I have offered to move her here but all she does is flip out about how I don't have a doggy yard for her dogs and she can't take them outside and so on. She'd have her own room here and we could work on the dog issue. It'd be a huge pain in the ass but we'd figure it out. Lord help me please because I really need some guidance here. She admitted to me that she is shutting everyone in her life out and I told her she can't make it thru this if she does that....she said she knows but she's doing it anyway.
not sure how much more of all of that my stress level can handle.