Tuesday, December 17, 2013
I joined the BLC this past fall for the first time. How did I do? How did I like it?
It was a bit rough in the beginning, and really in the middle too. I floundered. I flunked. I felt like I failed. It was challenging (well, isn't that the point???). It sent me way out of my comfort zone. Mostly because I had been sitting back, doing nothing before I joined. It's one of the reasons I joined - to shake me up, to remind me that living a healthy lifestyle is important to me. I had forgotten that it takes effort (sometimes a lot of effort, sometimes a little is okay, but definitely consistent effort) to be successful.
I struggled with checking in all the time, with fitting in the exercise, with keeping up with chat threads, and tracking, with just about everything. Then at the suggestion of a dear friend (para) I took a break. To regroup. To try and get a grip on where this fit in my life. I really, really wanted to think and reflect before it came time to register for the next round. Because I wasn't so sure I was going to do it again. I whined, I complained, I thought it was too much. Too much time, too much effort, too much tracking, etc.
Then I learned...I missed it when I took a break (not the first day or two). I missed knowing how everyone was doing. I missed the spreadsheet so lovingly created for our team. I missed the support. I missed the fun. I realized that the BLC is MORE than the tracking, the challenges, the traveling (for us Azures). It really is about living a healthy lifestyle. It is about taking care of yourself. About being aware of limitations in your life and working around them. About sharing - really about sharing imo. Sharing how you do things, how you eat, how you exercise, how you de-stress, how you handle life's ups and downs and still focus on being healthy.
I realized I LOVED the sharing. I've learned so much from my teammates, and from new friends made when we traveled to other teams. It's worth repeating...I've learned so much. About myself and about this journey/lifestyle. I've found new books that have been a tremendous help (thanks Stonecot!!). I also found new fiction novels to read (thanks to the entire team sharing their fav books). I've learned that being here keeps me accountable, and that's something I need. I just do better when I am involved with a team.
I've really begun to understand the phrase 'good is better than perfect'. Really, that is beginning to sink in for me. And trust me I am definitely an all or nothing gal; and a die hard perfectionist.
At the end of the round I have realized that I love the Azure team, and I need the BLC. And that I can adjust it so that it works for me (okay, that's still a work in progress, but that's okay too).
I did not meet my goals, but in hindsight they were way to ambitious for this time of year. I am really happy with my results - I believe I'll be down 5 lbs from my starting weight (my goal was 12 lbs). And typically for me to maintain this time of year is difficult, so the loss is welcome! Funny thing is it has come at the end of the round (and after some unexpected oral surgery), but maybe it took me that long to figure it out. And maybe not being able to eat much for a few days helped jump start me again.
I do know that next round (yes, I've signed up again) I will be ready to go. I know what to expect now. I feel like I am a part of this team, and I am looking forward to starting up again!!
So thanks to everyone on my team! You all helped me through (Jen you saved me at the end!). You were understanding and supportive and just there. And I truly appreciate each and every one of you. It has been a journey for me, and I am glad that I jumped in with both feet!!