Dec 17, 2013....hubby's birthday
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
So today is my husband's 39th birthday, a reminder that we're getting older and nothing seems to change. I tried to talk to him about the issues within our marriage tonight and he shut me out. Not the best way to start another year in just a few weeks...not sure how much more I can push all of this out of the way for my children's sake. I wonder if they will eventually understand what I've done for them all these years? Will I regret staying in this relationship? Will he change? Can he? Does he even want to? I've asked for years to see a marriage counselor, he told me he doesn't believe in it which has ruined my dream of becoming one. I wish he could see what is right in front of him...maybe I have been deluding myself all these years that he and I ever belonged together.
So in honor of my husband who is a selfish butt I had two margaritas at dinner...I only ate one of the fajitas from my meal and brought the rest home but those two margaritas kicked my butt.
Oh and I shoveled mine and most of the neighbors drivways today and hit 5 miles by 3ish...cool. at least something went right