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Would you adopt me?

Thursday, February 06, 2014

I have been doing some internal work with the Debbie Ford group and what came up was a memory of my mom yelling at me that she would give me up for adoption but NOBODY would ever want me.

The shadow part of me made the decision and self rule that I don't belong anywhere. Nobody wants me, I am unlovable, unwanted.

This has impacted my whole life. I made it to be that I never belonged anywhere I ever worked. Heck, I have NEVER even belonged in my own body let alone this world.

So I have been talking to my inner child at the age of 7 when this happened and have been telling her that she is wanted, that I would adopt her in an instant and protect and love her for ever.

This is a huge healing experience for me. I have been tapping on it (EFT) as well but, I would really like to help her/me by you all telling her that she is in fact adoptable. That you would want her. It will be interesting to see how many reply to her.

Thanks for your input and support.
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  • SCOOTER4263
    I'm a heartbeat, Jetta, in a heartbeat.
    2699 days ago
    In a heart beat, I looked like you at that age with the hair style and glasses. There was so much abuse in my family as I was growing up death would have been better. My doctors told me later on in life that I have a very strong constitution within my core.I made a decision when I was 14 I would never get married because I knew even at that age I was so unhappy so how could I make another person happy. I met my beloved husband at age of 33 and married at 34 .300 guest were at my wedding, I think they came to see if I would really get married or run away at the alter,because they knew my pain. I am sorry for all your pain, I have a beautiful life now I am free of the past hurting me.I can never put it back as I so wanted a Leave It to Beaver Family I am free now & happy
    2710 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    Growing up I always wanted to be adopted and be special. My mother told me how when I was five days old she and my father took me to see some friends and they stopped at a small mini-mart. The woman told my mother she would give her that store if she would give me to her to adopt, since they also owned a large farm. My mother in her typical smart mouth way said "Well, if you want a baby, go get one like I did." I always thought how wonderful it would have been to have been raised by a mother who wanted me so much that she'd give a store for me. My mother had been married before and had three children and then her husband got murdered, so she married my father and had me. I always knew I wasn't special but just another kid.

    Glad ur doing the EFT Tapping.
    2711 days ago
    Thank you for sharing this. emoticon
    2718 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12565041
    Jetta, I would adopt that girl in an instant. You belong. You are loved.

    Work? I am not a big fan of letting the workplace define me or anyone. You were in the healthcare profession --that is/was a very objectifying world. Your worth is not a number on a spreadsheet. You are not a measurable benchmark, an object among objects. Rather, you are a lovable person beyond measure and not a reducible thing among things at work. Your value is in being a whole person. You have healed many because you belong to a much larger world. You were never a time card or barcode, but you were able to touch the spiritual world and bring light to where darkness existed in a time which defies a clock. Be certain you were loved. You were important. You hold so much goodness that you will never be able to give it all away.

    2720 days ago
    Oh I would adopt that sweet little girl in a minute !
    2723 days ago
    You bet she's adoptable! Lovable, beautiful and simply sweet.
    2724 days ago
    Yes, yes, yes.
    You are so brave to be going through all this.
    It sounds like it's helping
    2724 days ago
    Oh my gosh, my heart is warmed by your kind words. I am so moved, I will read these words over and over till they really sink in for my little hurt part of me. I know this is huge for me. THANK YOUI!!! Sooo much.

    2724 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14237331
    Adorable and a big YES I would!

    ((((HUGS to you my friend))))) for working on this part of your life.

    I had to do this too, in the past. If you ever want to talk, I am here for you! I've experienced this negative side of my mother too many times.
    2724 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/7/2014 5:21:43 PM
    I'd adopt you in a second, babe! In fact, not only would I adopt you, but I'd get you a puppy and the puppy and I would love you forever and ever!!!
    2724 days ago
    I want you!!!!!
    .. I will scoop you in my arms and hold you close .. then over time love all those nasty words, thoughts and deeds right out of your life .. gone .. never to return .. just lessons learnt to be a part of your soul experience .. not your life .. not who you are.
    You are loved, wanted ,cherished , and a part of a loving family so you can love in return ... Know that!!

    2724 days ago
    Yes, definitely! I am sorry you were caused such pain. It is a shame the pain our parents can cause us. emoticon
    2725 days ago
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