Making progress.......very slowly

I'm feeling pretty good lately. I'm sticking with my plan and eating betwen 1200-1500 cals a day, usually on the lighter part of that range. The weight is coming off very slowly. In fact, I would say PAINFULLY slow. But at least it's eventually coming off. I do get sad, bored, hungry, annoyed, overwhelmed, and lazy, but I am still trying every day to stick to this plan.

Last year I was in New York hoping to find that "cool, artsy" job I've always wanted. I've had those jobs in California and even New Jersey. But never New York. That is the place I've always wanted to be but never wanted to leave my Mom. When she passed away, I felt an overwhelming desire to be in NY, the state where she was born.

So I packed a suitcase and drove from CA to NJ. I was very lucky to get a great job in NJ within a very short time. It was the most money I ever made so I was feeling good. But it was only a contract job so once that ended, I was on my own again. I went on interview after interview in NYC and felt my size was stopping me from getting work. Most of the other applicants were younger and "fashion forward" in their look and size. I started feeling old and dumpy. At a certain point, money was running out so I was forced to leave and come home to CA. I figured I could take a few months to get healthy and lose some weight, so I could return to NY more confident.

Now I'm on Month 3 and I've only lost 8 pounds. But I have lost 22 in total from last year so at least I'm nowhere near my highest weight. I decided to give it another 3 months in CA and then go back to NY. I'm PRAYING I can at least lose 20 pounds in the meantime. I'm eating very light so it's puzzling to me that I haven't lost more.

I guess all the small steps I'm making will eventually lead to something. At least I hope!