Freezing Up & Worried
Tuesday, April 08, 2014
Today should be counted as okay. It is on paper to a certain point. I've had all of my water, I'm eating well, I went to the gym. And then...you look at the clock and go "and what else?"
There is nothing else. It took me HOURS to get myself to the gym, though I was dressed and only had to put on my shoes. I have things to do, there's a list right here. And I just...sit here. Now that I've eaten lunch, I'm feeling tired. I actually am still hungry too, which is new.
I have Junior League tonight, and I know that will be fine, I wrote my comments up already to present. Then off to the movies with some friends after that. But in terms of doing the things that need to get done *for me* and to move forward with my life, I'm just sitting here.
I can see that I'm scared, but I'm not sure of what. I'm hiding, because it's an easy way to pass the time. There's like this giant disconnect in my head, and I just don't know what to do!!!!