I was just reflecting over a few of my previous blogs. I have been absent from sparkpeople because i've been busy with my Team Beachbody Coaching and being involved in the challenge groups on my FB pages. but i've MISSED blogging. even if no one reads it. lol i'm finding that the weekly blog was one of the tools that i think also gave me a boost. i should start it on my health and fitness support page on fb. :) i love being in the challenge/accountabliity groups because it helps me look at myself. and answer for it. lol
i went through a tough time 6 months ago. started with being in more pain than the pain i delt with every day. Fibromyalgia runs in my family. and though i havnt been diagonosed (cause i keep forgetting to mention my symptoms to the doctor when i rarely go). i think i was having a flare up. it was BAD .. you would think i hadnt been excercising consistantly for a year and a half. and also working doing a very phsycial job 2 or 3 days a week. it snowballed to the point of not being able to workout because it was all i could do to recover from the days i had to massage last october. it really stole my joy not to be able to workout, it messed with my emotions and i started cheating more and more.. then in november i started a suppliment to help with inflmation and i felt like my pain was finally manageable again and was gonna start my routine and then one of my sisters died.
talk about set back. everything was out the window except my daily shakeology. i know i would have gained weight faster without it. but my emotions got the better of me. and i gained more weight over the next few months.
i'm now up to about 170. i'm so discusted with that number. but ive been plugging in to my challenge groups and stepping up my consistancy with my workouts. i'm back to running challenge groups and i'm on the journey too. i have the RIGHT tools i KNOW the programs i do work and the shakeology is amazing and will help my weight loss and continues to help my insides every day. :)
its hard over coming the emotional wounds and get that dicapline back. but i am gonna get back to that size 6. i'm back into 10/and some 12's. not cool.
its not about the size but on me. i'm looking plump again. i'm short.
i'm coming clean. i have what it takes to be fit and healthy. but it only works if i work it fully.
i've been slacking on my nutrition. i have the right guides and experience. i just need to reinforce my WHY. i completed two rounds of 60 days each of Combat last year and t-25 and body gospel then in october to mid jan. nothing)
then 21 day fix this year. it helped me get in the game better now i'm on my 3rd week of PUMP/combat combo.
sorry this is so rambling.
LOOK GOOD NAKED
FEEL GOOD IN CLOTHES I TRY ON (hate being upset in the dressing room)
GET AWAY FROM DEVELOPING HEALTH ISSUES AGAIN
GET STRONGGGG BE THE BEST VERSION OF MEEE POSSIBLE
DONT WANT TO SELL MYSELF SHORT
FEEL SEXY FOR MY HUBBY *HE THINKS I AM. BUT I WANT TO FEEL IT. LOL
BE A ROLE MODEL TO THOSE WHO STRUGGLE TOO!
BE A BETTER HELP TO MY CUSTOMERS AND LEAD BY EXAMPLE!
I think thats a good list for now.
cant believe i started this journey march 7th 2012 and its already END of april 2014. its a journey. i'm NOT where i was when i started thankfully!!!!. And i'm still never giving up trying to be where i want to be. life will happen. some may never gain any back. but a lot of us will gain at times. for one reason or another. battle field of the mind, for sure.
i'm still not giving up. check in with me please! FB me! and join my health and fitness support group.
thanks for listening..
Keep on Keep'n On!