Hi My Friends!
I think of you often, I truly do.
I log on and read as much as I can of your trials and tribulations, sending words or healing thoughts to each of you.
I think I have been lost in a miasma of who knows what.
At times I feel like I am spiralling out of control mentally as there are so many things going on.
Where to start...hmm...
At the start of the new year (maybe even slightly before) I started slipping physically too. It didn't seem to matter what I did, my scale would inch up and my clothes felt tighter.
I know it was mostly mental...meaning I was slipping into the doldrums.
When you live with someone who is in CONSTANT pain and you always have to keep a smile on your face (when sometimes all you want to do is scream) it eventually takes a toll.
I could feel those cement blocks pulling me down into the depths of despair.
Now I have fought off those thoughts before and once I gave myself a good mental B'slap, I pulled up my big girl panties and cut those suckers off.
I am at my lowest weight now and am exercising every day.
In 40 days I lost 17 lbs and over 10".
My mindset is better able to handle all that is going on in my life and I feel prepared.
I started running again.
Not well, but running.
I did my first of the season outdoor 5K yesterday, dragging my puppy along with me.
That was a sight to see! LOL!
I am cycling and lifting weights.
I feel stronger every day.
Definitely happier every day.
My DH had surgery a week ago to try to rectify the pain he is in. It will be awhile before we know if it was a success or not.
Praying that it is.
Our son comes home from University today for the summer. I can't wait for that!
It will be nice to have him back again, although I know it will be an adjustment on all our parts.
I will try to blog more as I go along.
I know you will be seeing more of me but 'less' of me in the future.
I am in control and losing.
Love and hugs my friends!