Motivation where are you?

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Well, I haven't blogged in over a month now and since then everything has gone fairly badly. I was motivated post holidays to get back on track and did well for only about two weeks and since, I just can't seem to get back in the groove and/or find my motivation to treat my body the way it deserves to be treated. Every day I wake up and say this is the day; I do well for most of the day and after dinner is usually when it falls apart. Then there's multiple celebrations that have been happening..... birthdays, bridal showers, weddings, graduations, most recently Memorial Day. I know those are not going to go away. If you are living there will always be a holiday, there will always be something to celebrate, and I've drilled it into my head more times than one can imagine, that everything can be done in moderation, yet lately, I haven't done that either. Why????? I don't have the answer. And I continue to to my daily walking ( I thank God and my dog for that) otherwise, I would have slid much farther than I have, but I really need to find a way to reign in all of those bad habits to which I am reverting. I feel guilt, disappointment, anger frustration, all in the name of not having enough self control to turn this around, yet I still sit here stuck in this quandry of what to do and how to help myself.
I'm a great one for dishing out advice, yet I don't listen to my own words. Spring is here, summer is upon us. I desire to eat better, to feel better, to look better. All that will lead to better heath and more happiness....... so what's stopping me???? I DON'T KNOW!!
I keep thinking that I need to find a streak perhaps to commit myself to, but I think that's where I'm lacking. I'm not finding the strength within myself. So perhaps a team that will force me to commit to some type of challenge to push me and to motivate me. I know I've found strength in groups before, and I think that is a major reason that I found success with Spark before. Advice and encouragement that I have gotten from friends and members helped me lose weight when I started, but now even that doesn't seem to be striking the right nerve. emoticon
Please let me know if there is anyone out there that would like to join me in some type of "group project" to lay it all down and start fresh and commit to healthy eating, exercise and a goal to lose some weight. I just can't trust myself to do this alone.
I blogged in the past about so many Sparkfriends that have disappeared over the year. I think when I was motivating and encouraging them I found the strength to keep myself on track, but now they are gone, and I feel myself slipping away too. I don't want this to happen. I promised myself and many other people as well, that "I will not go back there"
So today is a new week, a new day, a new chance. I'm going to search the teams, hopefully, find something that will suit my needs, but in the meantime, I am open to suggestions and advice, but mostly am hoping to find a few people who would like to join me in a "Welcome Summer" challenge that will get us and keep us motivated and will help on this ever long and difficult journey. Come on Spark people..... let's do ourselves proud. Let's try to put into practice everything we have learned ; most especially to never give up!! emoticon emoticon
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    I think you sound like many of us. We do good but we don't do good enough and there are always those little things that trip us up and then we start to spiral down instead of climbing up. I'm up to a challenge - not sure how we would start one but that might be the motivation many of us need. It would be great if we could just chat when we are at our weakest - mine is at night. Once I sit down alone (hubby is always in bed at 8 or 8:30) I start feeling depressed and that calls for food that I do not need. Hang in there you can do this - keep making little changes and they will produce a big positive at some point. I should follow my own advice - LOL emoticon
    2527 days ago
    Hey we just started today on the team against team challenge. Why not come join in again. I have done more today than the whole last week. I have a team to earn points for and I have to earn self respect for myself. You can do this.
    If anyone needs motivation try the 55+ladies team or the you can do it team!
    2527 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13487241
    WOW! I am exactly where you are right now...only you at least posted a blog! I was going to but just didn't. I know you saw my spark status today as you left a comment so I popped by your page and lo and behold here is your blog, which could be mine exactly if had only posted one! LOL

    Here's my plan. Whaddya say we adopt the same plan and call today" day one" and check in with each other everyday. You see I have done well and then not so well and yup those darned holidays and weekends just keep happening. Oh and the wine and marhertas too! I too can't figure out why what worked before about a year ago isn't working this time around and it's driving me nuts trying to figure it out. rehashing everything and berating myself and asking myself what the heck. So this is what I figured...an epiphany maybe??? lol I'm done with looking back. I'm done with asking WHY this and Why that? All of that!

    Oh yea...the plan! pretending like I'm just starting brandy new on SP. It's the only thing that I know was a great help...losing weight and with emotional help, and not only about weight issues. LOL I'm scrapping all the old stuff in my head....wiping the server clean if you will! Doesn't matter what happened AT ALL before today or in the last year. It's just driving me nuts anyway. So are you in?

    You've been such a great Friend from the beginning for me. Sometimes I swear we live in some sort of parallel universe! LOL

    So message me. Let me know what is that one little thing your going to start to tweak or set up as a goal. Lets remember to start small. One thing at a time! All that old stuff is just baggage anyway.....and lets do this together. One little NEW thing at a time.
    Talk to you soon,
    2536 days ago
  • LEWILL1982
    I feel you, I understand where you are coming from. I was very successful and it's probably how I maintained my weight for as long as I did, but I had an accountability partner. We had a shared email address with password and we logged in and logged our food every single day for over a year. We emailed about our struggles, our victories, our weekends, our weigh in's etc. If one of us was off track and we couldn't figure out why, the other could look and usually pin point the problem right away. It was the harsh dose of reality and tough love that I needed. It also helped that we worked out together.

    My plan for the next 30 days, starting with lunch, because I already goofed up at breakfast this morning, is to eliminate sugar and white bread/flour. I did it earlier this year, and felt great. Need to get back to it. Good luck!
    2536 days ago
    In your heart of hearts, you know that you got in your own way. Kudos to you for realizing this and wanting to do something about it. So, step out of your own way.

    What you want is on the side of that obstruction, so go around it and continue on your journey.

    Make a re-commitment to yourself that you are going to do what it is you need to do every single day, every single meal, whether you feel like it or not.

    Yes, your fellow Sparkers most definitely accompany you on the journey - because we're all on it, but, each of us has to do the work ourselves, for ourselves, and that is the lonely part of it.

    You really do have what you need inside you to do this if you just call upon it. Have faith in yourself that you can do this.

    Your mind believes and your body achieves.

    I have faith in you and wish you much success!

    2536 days ago
  • no profile photo RITAROSE
    I can relate to your challenges with sticking with it despite the ever occurring holidays and special occasions! You are so right to admit that they will always be there. The only thing that has helped me when I was successful in my journey is to look ahead and plan out what I will do at those special events. It takes self control and becomes easier with successful practice. Boy, this is a hard journey isn't it? emoticon
    2536 days ago
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