Dear: to whom it my concern,
Sunday, July 27, 2014
I know that I am changing, and while being in this transformation I am realizing who I am, and where I want to be in life and getting there will take baby steps. I know I have to the tools to do this because I did this once before let say 11 years ago. I am afraid of what life will be like once I see me at my goal weight of 180 pounds also what the future will be like knowing I work on my past issues.
I know I push myself on Tuesday 22nd of July, I woke up feeling different, and I went swimming across Lake Nokomis that day because it was open swim. When I got to the third orange triangle I start to feel different, and when I got to Beach side, I waited for the other party that where swimming with me that day, and when we started to swim back I got to the same orange triangle my grandmother came to my thoughts and please understand my grandmother past away 30 years ago. When I reached the other side I start to think about why I want to lose weight, why strange events are happing to me, and why this summer seems so stressful.
I started this Journey on June 7th 2014, I knew I was going to make some big changes in my life and to start the big change I had to dig in my past and work on the issues that where there. I know this might hurt people but I am doing this to better myself. I was never addict to food or sweets. I just had one candy that I would turn to that’s M&M’s Peanut kind. Or it would be alcohol. I am proud that I gave up drinking every day, and that was on May 25, 2002. I know how to be a social drinker. Just like I know that I can deal with life because since I gave up M&M’s on June 7th 2014 I had lots of stress. Or maybe I was covering up the problems of the past by eating that candy brand.
After swimming that day my eyes open wide to everything that I was covering up.