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Monday, August 04, 2014

Dire warning - or at least, it should be. Maybe I can also be a measure of small hope for some? I'm trying. Again. Really.

272.8 was what my scale said yesterday morning. That was before I had breakfast, based on the menu for this coming week that I set up late Saturday night before going to bed. That was before we went to the grocery armed with a shopping list based on that planned menu. That was before I put my foot down and said no snacks, chips, crap is coming into the house any more. PERIOD!

So that's not the ENTIRE 60 lbs I'd lost previously gained back, but it's close. I keep muttering to myself and to Bill how I'm tired of feeling this way, looking this way, squirming into clothes that don't actually fit and refusing to buy more because I have TOTES full of cute clothes that I use to be able to wear before I ballooned back up again. They're waiting for me, patiently, to pull my head out of my too-large-and-flat behind and do what I have proved works.

Plan meals. Shop based on that plan. Keep crap out - if it's not in, I can't eat it. Allow myself small treats. Make manageable goals, take small steps, continue on. I didn't run a half marathon the first day I laced up my runners and stepped out on the street. No, I sure didn't. I took over a half hour to walk one mile - and that was at full steam, huffin' and puffin' my way along, walking angry and taking control of my life. I'm not all the way back there, but it's still going to take time to get where I want to be again. One step at a time.

I've bee here, off and on. I've worked on at the very least, logging in daily. I'm going to work on tracking my carefully planned menu/meals each day. I'm going to work on increasing my activity and fitness. I've read your blogs and silently cheered or commiserated from the edges. I may not be very visible initially, but don't count me out. Not quite yet.
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    Thanks for posting! You helped me a lot

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    2194 days ago
    Hey there! We are getting the band back together! Of course, Irish never left us, but .... yeah. Any hoo... I 'm in exact same boat with you. Trying to stop the slide before I am all the way back at the bottom. Come back and be active with me. Help me get my rear in gear! :) We can do it!!
    2474 days ago
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    Hope you're doing well, my friend!!! It's not how many times you fall that keeps us from our goals, but how many times we fall never having the courage to get back up!!! xo
    2476 days ago
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    Hey lady, been thinking of you. Still remember me missing out on getting to see you at the RNR...I saw Gale and her husband for a second, and then I turned my head....and they were never seen again :) At the latest I hope to see you again for pasta next year for the RNR- I did sign up for the Half next year :)

    Chat later,

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    2485 days ago
    We're all in this together... I just threw down a gauntlet to myself: signed up for an awesome trip to Costa Rica w/yoga & horseback riding. The catch? Gotta peel off 20 lbs by the end of Feb to meet their weight limit, YIKES!

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    2489 days ago
    I'm back again too!!! We can do it like we know we can! Time to get "crack-a-lackin" emoticon
    2490 days ago
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    Hey sweetie,

    Well, you have commented more than once over the past few years about our parallel struggles and restarts. Here we are again...I'm actually kinda surprised that our "restarts" are so close together! Though I never had quite the success you did, I know that success is there for the taking for both of us.

    Lots has happened since I was last really active on here. We have left Ohio and are in Philadelphia, which thrills me to pieces! Seeing friends and family on a regular basis almost makes the extreme jump in cost of living worth it. I've started a new church job but I'm working part-time instead of full-time, which is a huge adjustment but also makes me happy. I will be starting school in a few weeks to become a certified spiritual director. That's going to take 2-3 years of classes to finish up, but I know it's what I'm meant to do in this life. Heading toward those goals I mustered up the courage to make massive life changes. I am also in the process of setting up a website for my new business called "Your Listening Ear." Once the website is live, I'll send you the link.

    Now to make the ultimate life change, to get the external body in line with how I feel on the inside. I'm having a hard time physically. After my thyroid surgery in March and a thyroid cancer scare, I haven't felt the same. Feeling much older than my 45 years on this earth. Gained 20 lbs since I used to weigh in on here. It's time for major changes. For me, that means working on exercise and a version of the Paleo diet. I've read the books Grain Brain & Wheat Belly and they sound manageable for my lifestyle.

    I am rooting for you, Candy. We can both do this. Yes, you have done it before, so you can do it again. I've lost 75 lbs. before and kept it off, so I can do that again, and more. I'd love to hear what's been going on with you lately. If you'd like, you can send me a private message. At one point I had your cell # but I don't have your current one. If you PM me I will send you my new cell # as well. I'd love to text you encouraging words! I'd also like to finally become Facebook friends if you're ok with that. PM me and I'll give you my info.

    Hang in there, woman! It's all part of the journey for us both. I miss chatting with ya and hearing how you're doing! Let's keep in touch, honey. Lots of love to you! Christine emoticon
    2503 days ago
    Oh good, we are both wrestling our ways thru this again. So much better for us to get back to nourishing these bodies of ours!
    2504 days ago
    Agree with Irish - NEVER count you out. So good to see you. Missed you so much. Think about you, Bill and the kids often. We still haven't made it down South - really need to plan something but it will probably be fall.

    Take care and all the best as you find what works for you.
    2505 days ago
    I've never ever counted you OUT, Candy.

    Stick your baby toe in the water, gal... and then jump in with a cannon ball and a smile.

    Good to hear from you - let me know if I can help.

    2506 days ago
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    I'm still starting over again too. Glad you are doing the small things that lead to success...that's what it's all about!
    2506 days ago
    Fall seven times, stand up eight.

    Your previous success with weight loss and running was inspiring to me and it will be again.

    Get your (as you say) flat a55 in gear (I can say it too because I am Irish and we have no a55es) and get back to work!!!!

    Looking forward to your new progress and success!
    2506 days ago
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