Monday, September 29, 2014
Sleep eludes me right now. Trying to get myself on to a consistent sleep schedule. It can be a challenge at times but I am trying. More so now than I have in the last few months. When I got back from my trip to NM it was like something clicked and I was ready to fight a litter harder and push a little more. I haven't been myself in these last 7 or 8 months. I still feel like a part of me is off. Missing. Changed. Something... Maybe its gone, not coming back. Either way I must learn to deal with it and make the changes I need for myself.
In my depression the scale climbed slowly up and up. But now, over the course of the last few weeks, I can say that I am watching it reverse. I changed my Spark goals and tickers to reflect my new goals and calorie intake and all I can say is, I am trying. I am challenging myself. I pray every night for the ability and strength to be able to do the things I need for my health, my heart, my financial stability and my happiness.
With that I sign off and wish everyone sweet dreams.