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Constant Reminder

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

About a week ago I finally added a side-by-side, before and after shot to my sparkpage. In the past I've showed before shots on a couple blogs, but they were full body shots. I also have some before shots in my photo gallery. These photos serve two purposes. First to remind me to be proud of the progress I've made. Second, to remind me that I never want to look like that again!

This is the first time, however, that I've posted a before and after close up of my face. I planned to just throw it into my photo gallery. Something for me to look at occasionally. Or if so inclined, for other spark members to look at. I know I always enjoy a good before and after pic. My reaction to other's pics is usually a gasp and then a "wow" comment!

After first compiling my before and after head shot, I actually gasped at myself! I came across the before pic a couple weeks ago and I was in shock. I barely remember the pic, but I do remember the day. My friends and I went to see a show and spend the day in New York City. I remember thinking that I looked good that day. I liked what I was wearing and I was having a good hair day. I was even pleased with the pics we took. Well here I am, 3 yrs. later, looking at this photo and thinking, "omg, was I in denial!"

I know many of you that have lost weight have said the same thing about yourselves. "who is that person?" "I don't even recognize myself" or "did I really look like that?" I even showed it to my 19yr. old son and he said he doesn't remember me looking like that. (It was only 3 yrs. ago!) I look at it and I feel sorry for the old me. I was kidding myself back then. I did not look good. I was the F word. I look so puffed up and uncomfortable. It reminds me of those people on tv that put on a fat suit and walk around town to see if they are treated different. Or like the celebrities that play a fat person in a movie. (like Eddie Murphy in the Nutty Professor) You can sort of see the thin person inside.

Like I said, I usually post before pics and bury them in my gallery. But I decided to put this before and after on my sparkpage. Gotta say, it's unnerving looking at this blown up version of myself, day after day. Unnerving but necessary, I think. It will now be a constant reminder of the person I never want to be again. I do, however, plan on updating the after shot "when" I lose more weight. The current after is actually from last Christmas. So I am thinner now anyway.

This is also a reminder that no matter how slow or stagnant my progress has been lately, I've still come a long way and I need to celebrate that. So, I will keep the before photo of me looking like an overgrown Shirley Temple and be proud of it!
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  • KIM22211
    at least you look pretty in both yours!
    2375 days ago
  • ROCKMAN6797
    Awesome comparison pictures, they really do tell a story!
    Good job and keep on pushing!

    2436 days ago
    I think the constant reminder is a good idea. Your weight loss is amazing and you look beautiful. You have done very well Spark Friend. Your success is to be celebrated.
    2437 days ago
    I completely agree. I know that I am my harshest critic and I'm constantly riding my own ass over my mistakes. But you are right, we need to seriously look back at where we started and realize that even if we're in a funk (as I am) that we've come a long ways from that "before" pic. Congrats to you on the progress that you have made so far!
    2438 days ago
    You're correct and you're all wrong. You (and why should you be different from anyone else, hmm?) are your harshest critic. Put away the "F" word and allow that maybe, just maybe, something changed a few years back. Something that got you serious about losing weight, something that led you to deepen your friendship with yourself. If you were someone else, you'd look at the "before" photo and exclaim, "How pretty she is!" Your friend T. Westen is on target. What showed before is that you respected yourself and expressed it, among other ways, in your appearance -- beautiful, stylish hair, clothes, makeup. You appeared comfortable in front of the camera. You appear even more comfortable now, sure, but please don't belittle your "before." She was doing something right: She knew she had the right to live, to love and be loved, to enjoy friendships, to be respected, to go where she chose, to have fun, to be serious. She paved the way for the woman standing next to her. If you continue cringing and making jokes about her, I'll give you a zetz with my wand.

    2438 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/26/2014 11:17:08 AM
  • HOLLYM48
    I agree totally with you about the face shots and the wow, did I look like that? And yes, we thought we looked good at the moment. At my heaviest, I remember thinking that I don't look bad for a woman in her mid 40's. But now I look back and think, wow, you did not look that good for a woman in your mid 40's but that is because of who I have become.
    You have come so far and I am glad that you are celebrating your success every single day!
    Keep up the great work! YOU are looking great!
    ps, I think you did look great 3 yrs ago too but you are looking so fit and healthy and trim today!
    2438 days ago
  • JANET552
    I have to say you are beautiful in both pictures. I am happy for you that you have tangible proof so you can see the changes. It's a great way to remind yourself of what you are working so hard for.
    2438 days ago
    You are too much - firstly, let me say you still look gorgeous in that first picture! I know all you see is puffy & fat... but dang girl - you are beautiful. The smile, the eyes, yeah even the hair! Granted you look even better with your face all thinned out, but still :)

    It is great to have those reminders though - and I'm glad you've come so far & are keeping that weight off. That is incredible!
    2438 days ago
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