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Reindeer Race 2014 and deep thoughts

Monday, December 08, 2014

Here I am, waving at my husband and daughter. My husband got up at 6 am to come to the race. emoticon He can be so sweet sometimes.

I did the same race last year, although last year I trained a lot harder for it. Even though I was pitifully unprepared, I still managed to make it in a little under last year's time... 18 seconds less, haha. I'm about 10-15 pounds less than I was last year when I ran this race. But sadly, I am much heavier than I was in May of this year.

I let my sprained foot allow me to overeat and be sedentary and put on some unneeded weight. I'm still eating more than I need, but I'm working on it. I had really hoped to finally be under 200 pounds by this time, but I just can't seem to find the motivation to get me there. I'm so much less focused on my appearance now that I'm a mother. Can't explain it. I'm just not caring that I'm heavy right now. Isn't that a bad thing? I'm not really sure if it's good or bad, honestly. I just know that if I had less weight on my body I'd have more energy to do the things I want to do. But at this point, vanity is no longer part of what's driving me to eat healthier or exercise.

Maybe the moms out there will understand... I feel like my entire ego is getting remodeled. It's about being selflessly devoted to family instead of yourself. Maybe I'm becoming a better person because of it.

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    what a great pic of you smiling at your daughter and hubby. Way to go on beating your time from last year!!! I can totally understand about not being focused on you but more on being with your daughter and making memories. I'm in the same boat but I keep getting upset with myself because I've let myself go so badly. One day we'll be able to spend a lil more time on us and get back to healthier habits and slimmer fit figures. Enjoy life!
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