Reindeer Race 2014 and deep thoughts
Monday, December 08, 2014
Here I am, waving at my husband and daughter. My husband got up at 6 am to come to the race.
He can be so sweet sometimes.
I did the same race last year, although last year I trained a lot harder for it. Even though I was pitifully unprepared, I still managed to make it in a little under last year's time... 18 seconds less, haha. I'm about 10-15 pounds less than I was last year when I ran this race. But sadly, I am much heavier than I was in May of this year.
I let my sprained foot allow me to overeat and be sedentary and put on some unneeded weight. I'm still eating more than I need, but I'm working on it. I had really hoped to finally be under 200 pounds by this time, but I just can't seem to find the motivation to get me there. I'm so much less focused on my appearance now that I'm a mother. Can't explain it. I'm just not caring that I'm heavy right now. Isn't that a bad thing? I'm not really sure if it's good or bad, honestly. I just know that if I had less weight on my body I'd have more energy to do the things I want to do. But at this point, vanity is no longer part of what's driving me to eat healthier or exercise.
Maybe the moms out there will understand... I feel like my entire ego is getting remodeled. It's about being selflessly devoted to family instead of yourself. Maybe I'm becoming a better person because of it.