Last Moments with my Mother

Tuesday, December 09, 2014

My mother passed away Thursday night, Dec 4. I was away (out-of-town) all day at a rehearsal/concert and was afraid I would get back too late. I believe she waited for me. When I entered her room at 10:15 pm, she had labored, gurgly breathing. I began to lovingly speak to her, caress and kiss her, and finally sing to her. Her breathing quieted and she seemed to react to some of the things I said and did. After 20 minutes she slipped away. It meant so much for me to be with her when she left, and I am so grateful it happened that way. I was actually the only one there with her. I will miss her so much, but she has been gone for a long time, and I'm glad her soul is finally free.

I haven't exercised since my mother's passing, up until today. My eating hasn't been that great either. I know I have gained a couple of pounds. The main thing is, I am not going to let my sorrow continue this unhealthy pattern. I am SparkPedaling right now, as I prepare this blog, and I will keep working toward good health; that is most certainly what my mother would have wanted.
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    What a beautiful way to spend your last moments together. The photos are are lovely tribute to her. Thank you for sharing them with us here at Spark. Continuing to think about you.

    2339 days ago
    My condolences. May you find the comfort and strength to find your bearings soon.
    2340 days ago
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    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon oh, I am so sorry for your loss, and so glad you were able to say goodbye ~ will be thinking of you and hope your grief will ease and memories warm your heart. (((hugs)))
    2341 days ago
    OH, my dear Nicole, I have tears falling reading this. I am so very glad that you had those precious moments w/your Mom. As difficult as it is for you losing her, your attitude is right that her spirit, her soul is now free. I don't know if anyone has ever told you, but you are the spitting image of your Mom!

    HUGS and prayers. It's difficult work grieving. So sorry you are going thru this.
    2341 days ago
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    Nicole, I am so sorry that you've experienced this loss. It is a blessing that you did get to see her just before she left. There is no doubt that she was waiting for you.
    (((Hugs and Prayers)))
    2341 days ago
    My heart goes out to you. Your mom was very fortunate to have such a special daughter. It must be very comforting for you to know that you were there right at her side. My late husband passed away 20 years ago, he was 31 years old and I was 27 when I became a widower and it was sooo hard for me to know that I was not at his side when he passed away. Your mom is your guardian angle. emoticon
    2341 days ago
    emoticon No words. Just emoticon and emoticon sent, emoticon
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    In both pictures I can see the love you two had for each other - it warms my heart. I'm sorry for your loss, she is watching over you now. Just take it one day at a time to get back on track. emoticon
    2341 days ago
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    Nicole what a beautiful time to spend with your mother. My heart goes out to you. So much love you shared. Hugs to you, you are the best! emoticon
    2341 days ago
    emoticon for your loss words are not enough to express what I feel I lost mine 34 years back but miss her even now emoticon for er & for you that you have the strength to go on emoticon emoticon
    2341 days ago
    My heart goes out to you. I lost my mother too, a few years ago, and my husband as well a couple of years later on her birthday. At the time I didn't think I could possibly survive the loss of them both.

    I'm glad you got to spend that time with her. I was blessed too by getting to spend some time with my mother just before she died.

    I know there is nothing to say that will make you feel better and I know that no one can possibly know what you are going through but I care and I am sending peaceful thoughts your way. ((HUGS)) to you. Know that you are stronger than you can imagine.
    2341 days ago
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