Sunday, February 15, 2015
January 25th, 2015 was an amazing day. The day of my first official race. I joined a training team that guided us through the all the ups and downs, made some great friends, and learned about myself. It's all about committing yourself to accomplishing something you never thought was possible. I grew up overweight, and couldn't run around the schoolyard without huffing and puffing. Never in my wildest dreams did I think one day I would cross a finish line 13.1 miles ahead. But I can honestly tell you the day your feet lead you across the finish, you aren't the same person that crossed over the Starting Line.
It is life-changing.
I am going to compare running a marathon to childbirth. I trained for 9 months. When the day finally came, I was nervous and excited at the same time. And as you're running, you're thinking "when will this end? How much longer?" It's kinda like torture. It's painful. You know the finish line is coming closer, and you give it everything you have. When I crossed it, I literally cried tears of joy. It was one of the happiest days of my life. And then you have that medal around your neck and your body is just exhausted. I remember sitting down in the team tent to eat pizza and I couldn't get back up. My body had battle wounds like blood blisters, and chafing. I woke up the next day so sore I could barely get out of bed. And 2 days later, I forgot all about the pain and was looking ahead for the next race. I even ordered a marathon foto capturing the moment.
Now my darling husband wants me to register for the next one. He wasn't able to be there to see me finish, and he wants to be supportive, and cheer me in my second pursuit of a medal. And I so want to do it. But do I go for the whole 26.2, or stick to the 13.1? I am so divided. Running 13.1 miles hurts. Like, my hips were aching, and my legs felt like dead weights. I can't really wrap my head around the thought that that was only half the distance. Can I physically handle running 26 miles? I'm unsure of myself. My doctor has advised me not to. Too much wear and tear on the body. My husband thinks if I lost the 20 pounds I've regained first, then it would be easier on my joints. They are probably both right. And at the same time I feel like I know I can do a half marathon, so why not aim higher?
Right now, I'm just not sure.