feeling better about things, regrouped over the weekend
Monday, February 23, 2015
thank you all so much for your wonderful support in my last blog. you all really got me thinking that i can't expect this to happen overnight, i will have struggles and it can go very slowly sometimes. i just need to focus, and look at past successes. i really need to look at what i'm doing now, what i did when i was successful and what i need to change to make things happen.
i realized i wasn't giving this my all. i was letting my sabotaging thoughts control me. i was feeling defeated, yet i wasn't doing everything i could to be successful. that needs to change!
i had a very relaxing weekend. i tracked my food, i stayed on plan! woot! went on a walk with the family. drank my water. reviewed the introduction and the first week of the beck diet. i'm going to work on a couple days that i think are worth more effort and time before i move on to the second week. yesterday i worked on giving myself credit and today i'm working on mindful eating.
i realized that i was letting my eating control me, i wasn't controlling my eating. and drinking. i let my hunger and cravings dictate what and when i'm going to eat. i bring plenty of food to work yet i convince myself that the cheetos in the breakroom are the only thing that's going to get me through the day alive.
i bought a 6-pack of bluemoon's new peach beer. omg, it's good! anyway, i bought it friday night and promised myself i'd have one daily, if it fit into my daily allowance. i had one saturday and one sunday. so proud! i know i have issues with drinking and i don't want to. i need to work on it. i can't keep being a binge drinker, but i also can't not drink. i want to be one of those people who can stop at one or two drinks and be fine with it. but it's something i need to practice. the fact that there are still 4 beers sitting in the 6-pack holder is a great accomplishment.
i feel really good about where my head is right now. i'm taking things one day at a time. i'm going to focus on everything i put in my mouth, every food-related thought i have and really concentrate on working out, but not beat myself up if i miss a workout.
i'm my own worst enemy and i have to figure out how to love myself.
also, i got a fitbit over the weekend. that's been nice and motivating. if you have a fitbit and want to be friends my email is email@example.com