can i lose 5 pounds today?
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
tomorrow is my first weigh in for my own personal diet bet. if i make my first goal i add $25 to my pot. on friday i was trending perfectly to hit this mark. then the weekend happened. i had my parents over for their birthday dinner of corned beef and cabbage. and beer. heh. i tracked everything, it wasn't a big deal. it wasn't a last minute thing that sent me over the edge. then sunday came. i just wanted junk food. so i had junk food. then yesterday happened and i stress ate all freaking day! those two days weren't planned or tracked, they just happened. but i refuse to let them ruin my week! i'm getting better with that issue.
friday i was 2 lbs from my goal weight, today i'm 5. i'm at a cross roads here.
first, the old me (by old, i mean 3 weeks ago) would have said "eff it, i'm not going to hit my goal. bring on the chips". the new me doesn't want to mess up the 7 lbs i've lost in the last 3 weeks.
second, i've lost 4 lbs overnight before. i've done it before, i can do it again.
third, i've tracked all my food for today. if i stick with my pre-planned menu i can be successful and drop overnight. i may not see 5 lbs, but i'll see something.
fourth (cause my crossroads needs a fourth), i will be screwed if someone brings in holiday treats! i just want to eat and eat! remnants from the 3-day bender.
this is such a turning point for me. i've never reached one goal that i've given myself to be a certain weight by a certain date. it sets me up for failure and sabotage every single time. and even if i don't make tomorrow's goal, i'll feel good knowing i tried. i'll have accomplished something, which i've never done before.
this could be easier if i was able to workout, but something is wrong with my knee so i'm taking it easy for a couple days. i have an appt tomorrow and am hoping they have some info on what i can do to help it heal completely. i seem to have prepatellar bursitis. which is bursitis of the kneecap. basically, i kneel too much. haha. i diagnosed myself with that, so i could be completely wrong.