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Friday, March 20, 2015

The last six months have been rough.
Emotional. financial, difficulties created turmoil, depression in my life.
There was one week where I could hardly get out of bed.
I just didn't want to deal with all that was happening.
I'm a very private person.
I never discuss much about my personal life.
But when I felt my life was falling apart. I needed to talk to someone.
I kept asking myself why? Why is all this happening?
I chose to pray , ask God for guidance .
One by one over a length of time all the pressing issues were resolved. There are still some family problems, but those are more complicated and hopefully will workout.
It took a lot out of me.
I didn't handle the pressures as well as I could have or thought I should have.
I thought after losing so much weight and the knowledge that food was as addictive as any drug. Using food to numb my feelings, would never happen again.
Well .I was wrong.
I found all the old excuses to eat or eat too much, or the wrong choices were still there.
Fortunately I didn't slip as much as I could have .
I knew in the back of my mind I had to take control. had to make an effort to get in some exercise and eat better. Knowing and doing are two very different words.

I had Titan to think of and didn't want him to suffer just because I was falling apart.
I'm so happy to have him, he was my warmth and love through many morning.
When I didn't want to budge out of bed, he would wiggle up with his little warm body. give me a few wet kisses and tilt his head with one ear perked up and look at me with a questionable look. as if to say" What's up, lets go for our walk."
Or he would jump out of bed and a few minutes later I would hear him by the bedside with his ball in his mouth wanting me to play ball.
I throw the ball in the hall and he run's to find it, bringing it back to me. he can play ball for quite some time.
So you can see he's a real joy for me.
I have been on this life changing journey since Jan. 2010.
I know I will always be working on making the right choices,
My weight might go up and down some, but if it's not too much off my base then I will deal with it and still enjoy my life. I am not going to let my weight as long as I am healthy define me or my life.

Now that it's Spring. I thought it was time to clean, purge closets and maybe find a few new items.
You know me, won't spend too much for clothes. I am a thrift shopper.
It's been 6 months since I was in a thrift store, I broke that record yesterday.
Took some donations to Value Village . I went in and here's what I found.
A real cute watch. it has two straps, brown leather and one in gold. It's a double wrap band. When I saw it thought of the wrap bracelets I have been making.
I knew I could always use the leather straps for bracelets.
But the watch runs and I love it. I never usually wear a watch, for I don't like to be reminded of time.
Well I have used up a morning, not much done.
Going to JoAnn's use my 60% off coupon. Probably hit Michaels too, 40% off and beads 40 or 50% off. Never can have too many beads. Smile!!
I got a three day craft show next weekend. 27th thru 29th. In Roseburg at the fairgrounds.
If anyone lives in that area, would love to see you. Stop on by. It's a very fun show, entertainment , food and all handcrafted goods from some outstanding artisans.
Take care, enjoy the weekend.
Peace and Love
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    I'm happy to have 'run' into you here...I hear a common bond...thanks for sharing. Though I consider myself social and friendly...I'm still very private. For lots of reasons:) ....this is a great blog and thanks for sharing . So many relate to your struggles.!
    2228 days ago
  • BEATRIZ269
    Hi Trish,

    I am sorry you were having a such a hard time but as you see you are stronger than anything coming your way and you do get past it and recover. You have been here for me and I want you know as many others have said, I am here for you.

    Glad to see you are back in your normal swing!

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    2229 days ago
  • CANNIE50
    I am so glad to hear you have made it through such a dark time and are on the other side. I can very much relate. I so appreciate you sharing your struggle with me, on my blog. I always love to hear from you, and to read about your life. I love all the details you share about your life. You are such a gem - no wonder you make jewelry!
    2235 days ago
    Hugs and love coming your way, Tisha! Well done, my friend! emoticon
    2248 days ago
  • RDEE22
    Thanks for sharing your life with us. Enjoy your three day craft show. I hope you have a lot of sales and get lots of orders.
    2248 days ago
    Oh Tisha, I did start missing you, but thought you were just busy! Sorry to hear you were struggling! I am so glad to hear you are doing better and weathered the storm!
    You are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend!
    Please give Titan a hug from me for taking good care of you! He is precious!
    Lots of Love & Hugs,
    2248 days ago
    emoticon You are so creative. Love it when you post your pictures.
    Happy Spring! emoticon
    2248 days ago
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    I think we'll all feel better, now that Spring is here.

    Oh my goodness, how could you go 6 months without going to the Thrift Store? emoticon
    2248 days ago
    I have also been wondering about you as something just didn't seem right. I am so grateful that you have Titan to get you through these rough time and I hope that you will also remember that we care about you too and are here to help you any way we can when times are rough. You are not alone as long as you have a friend and you have many friends here. I hope the worst it over and that you and Titan will enjoy the return of spring.
    2248 days ago
    I had been wondering what you were up to. Sorry to hear you were having a hard time of it. But glad to hear the situation is improved and you are back. Take care of yourself. Give Titan a hug and an extra walk. emoticon
    2248 days ago
    oh my dear ---sorry you had to go through so much on your own
    Happy to read you have Titan in your life ..you know pets are the best relatives or friends there are..
    Purging and cleaning sure helps with problems stress and depression but so to does exercise so work that body and get happy again

    Glad to read that most problems are solved .. keep the faith.

    Today is International Happy Day hun so smile and hug your Titan
    2249 days ago
    Happy Spring! Love the great bargains you found. emoticon emoticon
    2249 days ago
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    Loved your blog, miss them. Glad to hear all is working out for you. Now that we are of a certain age we know "this too shall pass." (eventually)

    Loved the watch and blouse. Glad to hear your back in the swing of things. HUGS.

    Keep on keeping on.
    2249 days ago
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    2249 days ago
    Well done, friend. It's wonderful to read your determination to get back on course. I liked reading about your dog. Animals are not only comforting, but completely unjudgmental. My cat Punkin comes into bed for a snuggle before the day starts. Just touching an adoring animal can be so healing.

    Praying that you will continue to emoticon receive God's peace ... as He works in your life.
    2249 days ago
    emoticon Glad Titan is there for you. Take care.
    2249 days ago
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