I Have Faith
Monday, March 23, 2015
Well here I am again, after a lapse in time spent on myself, on sparkpeople, and doing what I need to do to make my life better. I know this time will be different, and I will tell you how. I know because I have faith. No, I wasn't born again, I didn't find religion, I wasn't dunked in a tank of water and blessed. It was more like an epithany that came to me when I asked a very simple question. I asked why cant I figure out what I'm supposed to do with my life? I have asked this many times and I never really heard an answer, but this time, I heard a song that I could not get out of my mind. The song was "Que Sera Sera" the old Doris Day song. If you're not familiar with it, (you're probably young) but its about how we cant see the future, and whatever will be will be. My mother always says, everything happens for a reason, and I know that is true, and I also know that I am not in the drivers seat when it comes to my life. But instead of enjoying the ride, looking out the window, seeing the sites, I am always questioning the gps, and asking are we there yet? Well not anymore...I have faith that my life is going to go in the direction it is supposed to go, and I just need to enjoy my life right where I am.An author that I have great respect for used the analogy of a seed being dropped between the crack in a sidewalk. It doesn't get depressed about where it ended up, it just does its best to grow anyway.So what does this have to do with my weight loss? Well I have faith that its all gonna be ok, so I can relax and take care of myself. And no deprivation or feeling bad about poor decisions, just best I can decisions, and lots more of good, so theres not as much room for bad. I can do this, I will do this...Life is good!