i'm a binge eater?
Thursday, March 26, 2015
while attempting to buy a house a few years ago i found out i was an emotional eater. while waiting to find out if our offer was accepted i would feel so stressed and just kept eating. i realized what i was doing and went for a walk. it was the first time i realized i was an emotional eater. i have noticed more since then that i do eat when i'm feeling extreme emotions (or boredom). i have also realized that i tend to drink more when i'm stressed too. emotional drinker?
i've been trying to deal with these feelings doing everything they say to do: go for a walk, find a hobby, talk to someone, wait ten minutes, etc. nothing works! then i get more and more depressed because i just can't quit eating. i sneak food, i closet eat, i make really lame excuses to drink. and every single time i feel like i'm out of control. i feel guilty, i want to cry, i promise myself i'll start over tomorrow. and then the same thing happens tomorrow. the past two weeks have been real bad. we're trying to get out of debt and it's been a very stressful week trying to come up with some funds "overnight". so i've been eating out of control. like i have $5 to waste on junkfood?! then i messed up my knee and i've been on light duty the past week with one more week to go before seeing the dr again. it's been depressing. i feel as though i'll never lose weight and get healthy if i can't use my knee properly. i can't even do a freaking squat right now! i know my being overweight and out of shape probably hasn't helped the situation (though what i have happens to people of all ages and especially athletes in full contact sports). that realization makes me feel even more depressed and frustrated and then i just keep eating.
yesterday i received an email from webmd about binge eating. i read the article out of general interest rather than personal reasons. it was a slideshow that explained different things about binge eating. the second or third slide stopped me in my tracks. omg! that's me!
here is one example of binge eating disorder(BED) from bedaonline.com:
"Binge eating disorder is characterized by recurring episodes of binge eating, feeling out of control while binging, and feeling guilt and shame afterward."
before yesterday i thought binge eating was when you sat around eating chips or twinkies uncontrollably. like you ate the whole box or bag yourself. i have never done this. i have never uncontrollably eaten a container of ice cream. apparently it's not:
"A “binge” can vary widely in amount of food consumed and duration of time spent consuming it. While it might mean a considerable amount for some, it can mean a smaller amount for others. Regardless of the amount of food eaten, the person still feels out of control to stop, with distress following the episode."
here are some characteristics that fit for me:
Recurrent episodes of binge eating occurring at least once a week for three months
Eating a larger amount of food than normal during a short time frame (any two-hour period)
Lack of control over eating during the binge episode (feeling you can’t stop eating or control what or how much you are eating)
Binge eating episodes are associated with three or more of the following:
Eating large amounts of food when not physically hungry
Eating alone out of embarrassment over quantity eaten
Feeling disgusted, depressed, ashamed, or guilty after overeating
i'm still researching this and have not been clinically diagnosed or anything, but i think it's a great start for what i'm currently struggling with. it's another answer in my continuing quest to find out why i'm overweight. i've been eating like this for years and i've never known why. maybe this is why?