Hanging in there
Monday, April 13, 2015
So, things have been... okay.
First off, job wise: nothing has changed, we don't know who is going to be laid off, but we do know we'll be getting notice as soon as they can give it to us after they find out our final budget cut, so I'm expecting sometime May 6-15.
I do know that it's going to be 8-14 people, and all in my pretty small category of employment, so at this point we've all fully gotten the message that odds are GOOD its my time, and if it's not then wow, and also life will be a lot different around here after that anyway. Oh, and probably same cuts next year so really, its not good.
So how I'm doing is okay. We WERE expecting news April 1, so that's kind of why we all started freaking out, then we got it now delayed a month and a bit before they can finalize. In a way that's kind of worse, because psychologically its crazy, and I can definitely feel it in the air. At the same time, its nice to basically have in essence a lot of notice to emotionally adjust and also I'm going to try to to get a lot of insurance usage, etc.
I was looking at clerical jobs at the UA that are available now, and there are a couple I could apply for. They'd be pay cuts and also I'm sure I'd be sad to move into that kind of thing, but at the same time they'd be easy to apply for and transition too, and I'd still have insurance, etc.
However, they have April application deadlines, one really soon, and I'm not really prepared. I'm not ready in that I have to do like, application work, and also its like, too soon I think. I don't actually know if I'm going to lose my job or NOT. I'm going to find out in a few weeks and then I'll still have almost 2 months, which compared to most jobs is still a lot.
That being said, I'm starting to look around online so I think I'm making progress just with that.
In other things, I've been feeling incredibly unmotivated to work out. Honestly all last week was highly emotional upheaval times at work. I know this is hardly the worst thing that ever happens to anyone, but its I think especially hard for us here to take this. This museum has been here for 120 years and many people have worked here 20-40 years. I'm only at 8 and that's the low end. It's crazy to imagine this being so hugely wiped out of staff in one fell swoop.
I've been giving myeslf some permission to just be low energy. I feel like I'm incubating. And I know that's not the best thing, but I think it's good for me right now.
I HAVE been cooking at home, and I WILL be maintaining my workout schedule at the rec of Tues and Thursday this week. And, maybe hiking Wednesday.
So, that's basically where I'm at.