I don't know why it didn't hit me sooner, and I keep playing it over and over in my head. "Why did you do that" (Referencing my cheat meal last night). It finally hit me!
I am a planner and a control freak. I don't like to eat out, because I can't control how it's prepared. I don't like other people to cook for me for the same reason. I like to plan my meals for the day, pack them in my handy dandy cooler and have breakfast, snacks and lunch while I'm at work, and have an idea, or at least ingredients of what I will have for dinner.
This morning, before my alarm went off, could have been the middle of the night for all know, I was laying in bed feeling slightly panicked "What are you going to take to work today?" - I would drift in and out of sleep, but kept waking up to that same thought... "What are you going to pack for lunch?"
So finally my alarm goes off, out of bed I get - begin my morning routine, head to the kitchen to pack my lunch, and see that my fridge is packed with lots of good options. Protein shake, fruit, cottage cheese, fish (left over from lunch yesterday), hummus, yogurt, pretzels, etc. So not knowing exactly what I was going to want, I threw them all in there... Oh yes I did girl!
Breakfast consisted of a protein shake filled with fruit, veggies and chia seed (yum) and a Chai spice tea with a little honey.
Snack was a couple pretzels with 2 tbs of hummus (yum)
Lunch was my left over fish (glad that's over with and gone) and watermelon.
So my next thought... "Whats for dinner?" Ummmmm...... Oh no! And that is EXACTLY what lead to my cheat meal last night! I didn't have a plan - I didn't have anything prepared, nothing thawed. I'm in the exact same boat today, so I'm going to have to be really strong and try to come up with a good choice, will ask my daughter to get some chicken out of the freezer - but most importantly, I am going to eat my healthy afternoon snack so I'm not starving when I get home, like I was yesterday.
Yeah - I guess that's my lesson for the day! PLAN PLAN PLAN and PLAN some more!