Thursday, May 28, 2015
ok, so I have to get back on track. I'm going full throttle in june. I can go full throttle for a downward spiral, so why not do the same for an upward spiral?
I tracked my food intake perfectly Saturday-Tuesday. it was interesting. first off, in those 4 days I ate all my allotted calories, etc for the week! omg. 41% was from various forms of alcohol! after Tuesday I got scared and quit tracking. the last two days haven't been any better. I can't keep doing this. I gained 10 lbs in 2 months! I can't continue on with that projection. it will only get worse.
I'm completely miserable! I have to make some changes.
first, I'm cutting out the booze. I want to be able to stop at one or two drinks, not keep going. it's pretty obvious at this time that I'm unable to do that. aside from father's day I have no social events planned for june. I'm sure that will change pretty quickly, but I can't use those as an excuse to drink. I need to put myself first, not everyone else's feelings of awkwardness that I'm not drinking. also my own awkwardness of being sober in a social environment.
I didn't used to be that way. when did it change? when I became overweight from drinking and felt self-conscious so I drank to feel comfortable? hmm...kind of a vicious cycle of irony.
second I'm going to focus on fitness. I don't know what I'm going to do yet. I'm going to ride my bike more and work on 10k steps a day. I just really need to work on not making excuses to not workout.
finally, I'm going to track! it was rather easy to track those four days. scary, but easy. I have no excuse to not track. even if I have to guesstimate or take a pic and track later, I have to do it! I never would have imagined I was as far off track as I have been if I hadn't tracked over the weekend. I know the last however many weeks haven't been too far off from what this week has been. no excuses! good, bad or ugly, I track it!
ok, that should keep my focused for the month and help get me back on track.