Today started out bad..but now feeling motivated..
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
I have counted my calories today...I have done all of the right stuff today but all while knowing that I wasn't feeling strong AT ALL. I was going through the motions because I need to get past today. Last night was a bad night for me and the past few weeks before last night just as bad. It's always so hard to start again. But I decided that I was going to fake it until I make it...So I ate good all day and then I did my day 3 of the C25K program. While I was doing it I decided to sign in to my spark when I was done because I figured it worked before..so let's try it again :) I sat down and started to read. At first it made me sad...I literally just sat in front of my computer crying because I am SO MAD at myself that I did this before and I let myself get back to where I am. How could I do this?? UGH! But then I read my last blog post before this. And I read how when I started before I did 4 miles in my second week. Seriously to me that's pretty big! When I first started trying to lose weight I remember hardly being able to do 1 mile. It was HORRIBLY hard lol. But the last time I did 4 miles in my 2nd week!! That really encouraged and motivated me. I CAN do this again!! I can't wait to see how this goes..I will NOT be back here in 6 months talking about how I have to start all over again...I can't...I am ready to do this now!!