Losing another 4 legged friend..Isis
Monday, June 15, 2015
This past Thursday, Jun 11, our family lost our beloved dog Isis.. She was 10yrs old but we only had her for 7 years, and the pain is overwhelming. Her death was unexpected and heartbreaking, my son (15yr) actually found her unconscious after school and called us hysterical. He performed CPR for 20 minutes until we were able to get a neighbor to come over and call the Vet, who stated that she has passed. As a parent, I have all this guilt, being at work during this whole situation and taking me so long to get to him. (it was only 30 minutes before I got home but you know it was like a lifetime) As a pet lover, I wondered if I should have done more. If there were signs that I missed. As a psychic/healer, I have so much guilt that I should have known and should have done something. We just took her to the doctor on Tuesday because she was vomiting and not being herself.. URGH.. The guilt is overwhelming.. What good is it to be a healer/psychic, if you can't help.
I know, I know.."If God wanted you to help, you would have!" "It was not your place to help her" "You could not have done anything," etc..." but it doesn't stop the guilty self-talk!
I do know this was a lesson that I needed to learn and that Isis must have been needed in Heaven but the hurt is not any less. I am grateful that I had her in my life and that she is Home but I wished it did not hurt so much. I pray that she knew we loved her and that we showed it to her everyday. I guess not sensing her spirit means that she crossed over because she felt loved and had no unfinished business. That at least is reassurance that we did love her and she was happy. Thank God