Feeling!!!!

I can feel with little reservation. only because I'm so scared of being hurt. going to terry's family reunion because she really wants me too and I have someone who is going to do my hair and makeup. I will be wearing a halter dress that fits with white sneakers to match because we'll be at the beach. my mom will be watching ashlea for a couple of hours. they both know and are the only two who know outside of me and donna what's going on for Saturday.

for everyone in here, I do not EVER wear makeup, a skirt or dress maybe four hours every five years, and my hair is either in a ponytail or in a bun (to get fancy, a quick braid). this will seriously blow minds.

donna told me I need more self esteem when it comes to my body. yeah, duh. don't we all!? at first I was like, I have good self esteem. I know I'm smart. I'm a good mom. I'm a good friend. I'm honest and loyal. she just looked at me and said you look great too. uh huh. sure. well. done ranting! I will be getting a picture and will post it come hell nor high water. she promises I will look amazing. we shall see!!!