New beginnings, emotional eating
Tuesday, July 21, 2015
I had a little test for myself today.
I had a particularly upsetting day at work- not work related but with 'family' members that are less than sensitive and really hurt my feelings. It goes back to feelings of not belonging that are deep rooted- and I'm working on those.
But I knew the tears would come when I left for home- and come they did. Little buckets of tears.
I did reach out to a friend and she asked how I was doing since I'm on this pre-op diet of about 600 calories a day mostly from protein shakes. I told her I was hurt and hungry.
Of course I was.
My inner toddler was starving. Hungry for comfort.
When I did get home my wonderful dh had prepared a dinner I can have on this pre-op, and one I was anxious to dig into. But I didn't.
I realized that I needed to calm first- so that when I did eat I could enjoy the nutrition of my food and not use it for comfort. So I sat and talked to him, had a drink, waited about a half hour, had a salad. And then- when I was calm and feeling better- I ate dinner.
This isn't just about losing quickly so I can have surgery. This is about finally taking any steps necessary to change my bad habits. One at a time. So I can have some real peace and freedom from food.