Day 86 ***sigh**
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
So here I am on day 86, and frustrated, burned out, feeling unmotivated and all those other nasty things that got me in this situation I'm in. I haven't had contact with my trainer/nutritionist in almost a week, and know he is not checking my food logs, because if he was, I know he would be all over me like white on rice for what I have been eating. French fries, BBQ, McDonalds, soda, etc. When I knew he was watching me, and everything I ate, I was MOTIVATED to stay on track, I was being held accountable. Now I feel like either he gave up on me, or he doesn't have time for me.
He normally is begging me for my fit bit activity report first thing Tuesday morning, but this week... *crickets*...
So, I guess I am on my own, and learn how to do this without being accountable to anyone other than myself. YIKES!
I know what I need to do, I know what I need to eat - I am just lacking the motivation and self-control to do either of these. I was sick 3 days last week, and since then, i am having a really hard time picking myself back up. I suppose being 1 lb. up from yesterday should be a pretty good motivator - as it did feel pretty yucky to see the number go up, rather than down.
So, today is a new day - and going to be a new beginning. Heeerrreeeee I go.... on my own.