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Day 86 ***sigh**

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

So here I am on day 86, and frustrated, burned out, feeling unmotivated and all those other nasty things that got me in this situation I'm in. I haven't had contact with my trainer/nutritionist in almost a week, and know he is not checking my food logs, because if he was, I know he would be all over me like white on rice for what I have been eating. French fries, BBQ, McDonalds, soda, etc. When I knew he was watching me, and everything I ate, I was MOTIVATED to stay on track, I was being held accountable. Now I feel like either he gave up on me, or he doesn't have time for me.
He normally is begging me for my fit bit activity report first thing Tuesday morning, but this week... *crickets*...
So, I guess I am on my own, and learn how to do this without being accountable to anyone other than myself. YIKES!
I know what I need to do, I know what I need to eat - I am just lacking the motivation and self-control to do either of these. I was sick 3 days last week, and since then, i am having a really hard time picking myself back up. I suppose being 1 lb. up from yesterday should be a pretty good motivator - as it did feel pretty yucky to see the number go up, rather than down.

So, today is a new day - and going to be a new beginning. Heeerrreeeee I go.... on my own.
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  • LAURIEM9468
    Kacey -
    Thank you and I appreciate the thought. I really need more of a "boot camp" type motivator, and that is exactly what he was. He is the current 205 LB MMA champ, and he doesn't play! I was paying him to stay on my A**, and that is what he was doing. He actually had me crying and apologize to him for eating 1 (yes ONE) single french fry off my daughters plate. So, though I appreciate the thought, I don't think that would really do the job.
    1848 days ago
  • KACEYSW
    Have you thought about an accountability buddy from SP? It has helped me...
    1848 days ago
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