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I will never give up.....

Thursday, July 23, 2015

I've been away from Sparks for way too long. And honestly, I was doing quite well. I had lost 133 pounds through proper eating and exercise. That was back in 2011. I had maintained that weight loss for 4 years. Then my Dad passed away in 2013, during that time of him being sick (Lung Cancer) and his passing I gained 14 lbs. I honestly was shocked at myself because like I said, for years I had done so good at maintaining the 133 loss. To make matters worse, I also got sick that October in 2013. It started with a cold, that turned to Bronchitis, and that turned to Pneumonia. THEN, as if that's not enough, I wasn't getting any better and the Doctor diagnosed me with whopping cough. I was one sick lady, my oxygen saturation was very low and walking just a few steps would make me start wheezing and gasping for breath which would bring on huge fits of coughing. It was so bad at times my hands would turn blue from lack of oxygen. So enters the Steroids. Sigh....... And there went the maintaining my excellent weight loss. I ballooned up to 233. I'm ashamed to say it but it's the truth. I have come to terms with this gain and I do realize this wouldn't have happened had I not gotten so sick. It was April of 2014 before I started feeling like I could walk any distance and be able to breath normally. At that point though I was so depressed and did nothing to lose the weight I had gained. Well, fast forward to May of this year, I lit the fire under my own butt and started eating for health and exercising like a wild woman. LOL Yep, I was on fire and dropping a couple pounds a week. And THEN, the phone rang on the evening of June 18th. My Mom had suffered a massive stroke. I spent her final week at the Hospice with her, singing her songs and talking to her, I was hoarse by the end of that week but I gave her my all in that final week, I'm glad I did, she was surrounded by family when she died, my hand resting on her heart as she took her final breath. It was a hard week and I depended on the family to bring food in. The simplest things to bring were fast food and well, JUNK. I didn't complain as I was stressed to the max and so you guessed it, I fed the face BIG TIME! I was surprised when I stepped on the scale to see I hadn't gained the full nine back I had just worked at to lose. But alas, I had gained 6 of it back. Darn it! Being the determined person I am, I kicked my butt into high gear and started over. I have now lost that nine pounds again. And in getting real I am admitting all this truth to you kind people who are reading my blog because I feel the best way to conquer my weight is to be real. So I reset my weight loss ticker yesterday. And here I go AGAIN. And I will say it again. I WILL NEVER GIVE UP!
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  • AVRENIM1
    Hi there, it's been I while. I lost my dad in December 2013 and this May 2015 I lost my Mom. Dad heart attack mom cancer. The only reason I haven't ballooned is because my mom begged me to eat healthy before she passed. Not easy, but I'm determined to continue doing it. I feel your lose. 😢
    2076 days ago
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