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Tuesday, July 28, 2015

...it gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you anywhere. --Van Wilder (I originally heard this quote in the movie Van Wilder years ago, but the internet tells me this is possibly a quote from Erma Bombeck) ;-)

So, there have been a few things on my mind lately, as I take this journey to a healthier me. And I realize these things on my mind are actually a bit silly, as they are things I'm worried about, but haven't even happened yet (if they even happen at all, lol). I think I'll feel better if I blog about these little annoyances, so here's my worry list:

Worry #1: I'm concerned about how I'm going to maintain my weight when I reach my goal. I'm getting ahead of myself, as I have only dropped 23lbs of the 65lbs I want to lose, and I'm already worried about maintenance, haha. I was reading a few maintenance articles from SP Coach Dean, and whoa, it seems like it's going to be a lot of work, to find that 'sweet spot' where I can maintain my weight with both diet and exercise. Reading about the physiological, as well as psychological happenings that can go on within the body had me thinking, "What the...good grief...oh boy...lots of work....FML...eeeek!"

You see, I've never been one to try to maintain my weight. I first started lifting weights at the age of 13, and was always involved in some type of sport - I even played collegiate volleyball for 2 years. So, my weight just kind of reflected whatever I was doing at the time, but didn't fluctuate too much, as I was always doing *something* athletic. But now, many years into adulthood, I am no longer always doing *something* on a daily basis - I have to incorporate this *something* into my schedule, and that has been a challenging task [read: laziness].

My weight has fluctuated quite a bit in my adult years - from a size 8 to a 14, and I've been the type of person who doesn't really bother with weight loss, until I 1) get freaked out by the number on the scale at the doctor's office, or 2) get tired of how my clothes are fitting. I have to say, that's probably my #1 annoyance of gaining weight - having multiple sizes of clothing in my closet. But, I have vowed for this time to be different - to keep the fluctuation to a minimum, whenever I figure out how the heck to maintain when I get to that point.

Worry #2: I don't know how long I'm going to need to track my nutrition, A.K.A. - When will my new lifestyle change actually become a stronger-than-oak habit? It's something that concerns me, because although I have no problem tracking now, how long will I have to do this? For the next year? Next 10 years? 4EVA?? When will I be at a point where I'm confident old habits and laziness won't weave their way back into my life? Will I ever be at a point where I just *naturally* don't reach for that donut? I think this change, if it ever takes place, will take a long time. Or, what will probably happen, is it will be a lifelong work-in-progress.

Worry #3: I don't want to become obsessed with the scale. I've never really cared about scales in the past, so I have no idea why I'm afraid the scale will rule my life now. I only recently purchased a digital one - and I've vowed to only weigh myself once a month, until I get back down to a size 8 pants - at that point, I will re-evaluate my weight-loss goals. At the end of the day, the scale doesn't define my success, so I need to remind myself of this, and keep my bum off that scale!

So, that's my little worry list for today. I feel a bit better now that I've put it on (virtual) paper. I plan on staying strong, and keeping my eye on the prize, and working through challenges and doubts as they come my way.

Thanks so much for reading my blog - hope everyone out there is doing great. Remember to always rock out with your Spark out! ;-)
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    Someone once asked me, "Gwad! How do you run that far?" ( In regards to a marathon.) My answer, "One step at a time." If I tried to take two steps at the same time, I would surely fall on my face. Healthy living is more about education.
    2149 days ago
    Love the quote! I worry about everything. Sometimes I have to tell myself life will be okay even if things don't happen the way I want. Meditation helps too.
    2150 days ago
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    Brenda----great blog
    your motivation I believe is going to get you thru this ..im thinking once you reach your plateau its going to be easier than you think ...always something to do is what I tell myself here either going for a walk , talking the dogs walking , maintence in the yard ......and you could even stay on spark after you reach your goal and keep the motivation going for the other folks ....
    But hey good luck to you ...it's gonna happen I/m getting ready to go on my walk after the morning radio show here goes off...lol
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    2150 days ago
    I think absorbing information about maintaining, as you go along, is a good thing (like reading others' blogs who are maintaining). Stressing about it since it's not happening is another thing. Sometimes we get caught up in all of these things.

    As far as tracking goes, you may or may not find a balance where you could leave tracking except for special circumstances. It gets easier to track like a way of life as you go along, at least in my opinion.

    The scale can be addicting. That's why I've been practicing mantras since I began, for the morning I weigh in each week. "The number on the scale doesn't show everything!" and more recently "It doesn't matter what it says." LOL I try to keep as neutral a mindset as I can when I weigh in. I try not to think about it or obsess about it. Sometimes that's easier said than done but I've found lately I like weighing in but it's really not that big of a deal anymore.
    2150 days ago
    I am the exact opposite: I was not active at all until the last 3 years. I LOVE working out. It makes me feel accomplished. I also like tracking my food, even if it's sometimes frustrating. However, I HAVE maintained a hundred pound loss for more than a year now. It's tough. You have to adjust sometimes. It takes tweaking. Psychologically it's more difficult than losing, because you don't get the reinforcement of the scale dropping. Results ( from strength training ) are slower and less tangible. But you can do it! emoticon
    2150 days ago
    That's awesome. Why awesome? It was like you wrote a lot about me. Lol I've had a very similar past with actively being in sports, multiple sizes of clothes. Me size 0-10. I've since burned the larger clothes. I think your worries are normal. IMO.
    2151 days ago
    I love that quote! It is exactly what I needed to read today. Thank you for sharing it.

    Your worries are mine as well. I'm sure a lot of people trying to lose weight and keep it off have the same worries. Knowing others have the same worries has helped me so much along the way.

    Maintaining my weight is a scary thought. One I am avoiding for now. I don't mind tracking my calories, actually I enjoy it. It is a reminder as to how good or bad my day is going food wise. The scale has taken over my life it seems like. I swore I wouldn't let that happen. I am much more than the number on that scale. I get on the scale way more often than I should. It kept me in line for the first 9 weeks of my journey but now that my weight loss is at a plateau point I am driving myself crazy with it.

    2151 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/28/2015 6:50:41 PM
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