Worrying is like a rocking chair...
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
...it gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you anywhere. --Van Wilder (I originally heard this quote in the movie Van Wilder years ago, but the internet tells me this is possibly a quote from Erma Bombeck) ;-)
So, there have been a few things on my mind lately, as I take this journey to a healthier me. And I realize these things on my mind are actually a bit silly, as they are things I'm worried about, but haven't even happened yet (if they even happen at all, lol). I think I'll feel better if I blog about these little annoyances, so here's my worry list:
Worry #1: I'm concerned about how I'm going to maintain my weight when I reach my goal. I'm getting ahead of myself, as I have only dropped 23lbs of the 65lbs I want to lose, and I'm already worried about maintenance, haha. I was reading a few maintenance articles from SP Coach Dean, and whoa, it seems like it's going to be a lot of work, to find that 'sweet spot' where I can maintain my weight with both diet and exercise. Reading about the physiological, as well as psychological happenings that can go on within the body had me thinking, "What the...good grief...oh boy...lots of work....FML...eeeek!"
You see, I've never been one to try to maintain my weight. I first started lifting weights at the age of 13, and was always involved in some type of sport - I even played collegiate volleyball for 2 years. So, my weight just kind of reflected whatever I was doing at the time, but didn't fluctuate too much, as I was always doing *something* athletic. But now, many years into adulthood, I am no longer always doing *something* on a daily basis - I have to incorporate this *something* into my schedule, and that has been a challenging task [read: laziness].
My weight has fluctuated quite a bit in my adult years - from a size 8 to a 14, and I've been the type of person who doesn't really bother with weight loss, until I 1) get freaked out by the number on the scale at the doctor's office, or 2) get tired of how my clothes are fitting. I have to say, that's probably my #1 annoyance of gaining weight - having multiple sizes of clothing in my closet. But, I have vowed for this time to be different - to keep the fluctuation to a minimum, whenever I figure out how the heck to maintain when I get to that point.
Worry #2: I don't know how long I'm going to need to track my nutrition, A.K.A. - When will my new lifestyle change actually become a stronger-than-oak habit? It's something that concerns me, because although I have no problem tracking now, how long will I have to do this? For the next year? Next 10 years? 4EVA?? When will I be at a point where I'm confident old habits and laziness won't weave their way back into my life? Will I ever be at a point where I just *naturally* don't reach for that donut? I think this change, if it ever takes place, will take a long time. Or, what will probably happen, is it will be a lifelong work-in-progress.
Worry #3: I don't want to become obsessed with the scale. I've never really cared about scales in the past, so I have no idea why I'm afraid the scale will rule my life now. I only recently purchased a digital one - and I've vowed to only weigh myself once a month, until I get back down to a size 8 pants - at that point, I will re-evaluate my weight-loss goals. At the end of the day, the scale doesn't define my success, so I need to remind myself of this, and keep my bum off that scale!
So, that's my little worry list for today. I feel a bit better now that I've put it on (virtual) paper. I plan on staying strong, and keeping my eye on the prize, and working through challenges and doubts as they come my way.
Thanks so much for reading my blog - hope everyone out there is doing great. Remember to always rock out with your Spark out! ;-)