Still Hiding Out

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

I prefer to blog about positive, happy things.
Not happening right now.

Have been eating out of control, isolating, not sleeping and depressed.
When I look at what I'm blogging, I know the 'funk' is real.
Can't hide it anymore.

The thought of not being around anymore is tempting.
I won't try to harm myself or others.
It is just a thought.

Please hang in there with me thru this very rough bump in the road of life.
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  • no profile photo CD15494626
    We love you VEG954!! emoticon Even though we're not there with you we feel you in our hearts!! Please emoticon emoticon We GOT YOU!!!!! And I know your family simply adores you!
    2137 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/14/2015 4:45:10 PM
  • no profile photo CD4114015
    NOT going anywhere.... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2138 days ago
  • KURTZIE1998
    Hang in there, we are here for you. Sending prayers that your load will lighten.
    We all have been in dark places and one time or another. Stay strong you will be able to get through this. Hugs.
    2138 days ago
    emoticon I know the feelings, hang in there we are all here for you,
    Try maybe some sunshine , a good book , meditation?
    2139 days ago
  • PURPLE0906
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    Sending positive thoughts and prayers, you will get past this. We are always here for you.

    2139 days ago
    Sending you the heat from my smile to warm are so worth each beautiful day we are is a blessing no matter how bleak things seem., to someone or do something positive today to make you happy...non food related of a spark related story...& feel the strength we are sending you.... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2139 days ago
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    2139 days ago
  • KERRYG155
    I can get into periods like that. I hope you can pull yourself up and out of it soon. Maybe some good music, books, friends or some sunshine on your face? emoticon
    2139 days ago
    I know you encourage a lot of people on here. You matter to others; you reach out to others. Hang in there. You have a community. We need you, and I know there are others in your life that need you too.
    2139 days ago
    emoticon A suggestion from me :) Go find an outdoors space that is restful and relaxing, like a park with a pond, and sit under a tree and simply relax.

    You do need to take care of yourself, and I find that spending time alone in nature helps restore and calm me.

    Maybe bring some relaxing music and play it on your phone or just enjoy the outdoor sounds without the music, then close your eyes and practice deep breathing for a few minutes.

    It's ok if your mind wanders, but when it does don't stress. Just focus again on the sensory aspects of your surroundings...sounds, smells, sights...and relax.

    Spend 30-60 minutes outdoors simply relaxing...some meditating, read a book (not a stressful one), listen to soft music. Just be.

    And if you believe in God, bring a bible and read from the psalms, then talk to God.

    I find doing things like this helps me when I'm really stressed and frustrated, maybe it will help you too.

    I am praying for you!

    2139 days ago
  • no profile photo CD15542977
    you can always make a phone call to health clinic - there's no reason to be alone in your head when you are feeling blue to the bone... vent, or whatever to a realtime anonymous person can be just what you needed to set things straight. I did that when I was fed up with tobacco. I haven't smoked in years thanks to one anonymous phone call.
    2139 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/12/2015 6:33:39 PM
  • LINDA!
    We all have periods like this. Do not give up. Remember to put yourself first. You matter to your family, friends and Spark Friends!! emoticon
    2139 days ago
    You are not alone. I know the pain of being so low. Make taking the best possible care of yourself number one right now, and just be gentle with yourself. I am so glad you chose to share this post.
    2139 days ago
    We're here for you!
    2139 days ago
    reach out to one person, just one to listen to you or just be with you.
    2139 days ago
    I am sending you positive thoughts and prayers. Hang in there. Things will get better. emoticon
    2139 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13406012
    Have been to dark places as well. It will get better. Keep reaching out like u jusy did on the blog.
    2139 days ago
    Remember we are all in this together. Suicide is not the answer. I will pray for you.
    2139 days ago
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