I am so beat down
Wednesday, September 02, 2015
This year has been the most turmoiltouous year I have ever have. I am exhausted by everything in my life. And everything just keeps piling and buring me deeper and deeper.
I'm at nearly 250 pounds now. I feel like total and complete crap - inside and out.
I hate everything.
I'm back tracking in spark. 2500 calorie days- but honestly doing better than normal thanks to my plexus. It's really curbed my snacking.
But I am still lazy and do virtually no exercise.
I hate who I have become. I hate every single aspect of my life.
I would like to say I need support and motivation, but even that doesn't seem to rouse me.
I wish this could be easy.