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Eating mindlessly

Monday, September 28, 2015

Tonight, for the first time since the Beck Trek started, I ate a bunch of food without planning or taking a portion out of a container or "caring" what I ate or trying to answer sabotaging thoughts.

It has been a long weekend, lots of family events, some unusual eating, but really I did well even at restaurants. But tonight, I was having some troubles, nothing big, but just not feeling great, and I started with a small yogurt, then sat down with a half a raisin challah in a ziploc bag, and just ate a little, ate a little more, .... I stopped before it was gone, but I ate about half of it, so a quarter of a round raisin challah.

Then I took a container of cashews, and I ate a few, ate a few more, ... and finally stopped. I am exhausted, but I don't know if I'll fall asleep because I just ate a ton of food.

When I get up tomorrow, I am getting right back on track. Not because it is a Monday but just because I know that I need to start right away. (I am not sure if some of my added snacks were a way of saying that "I already blew it so I'll just keep eating" but I really don't think that was it.)

I'm actually glad that this is making me feel sick. It reminds me why I don't want to do it.
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  • no profile photo CD2704340
    Don't let yesterday use up too much of today -- Will Rogers
    Keep Sparking! You can do it!
    1884 days ago
    Sometimes we need that reminder, don't we? Of how awful being stuffed feels!
    1885 days ago
    Good job at stopping (that is hard!) and resetting your perspective for today. Hope you are having a less stressful day today.
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    1885 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14959796
    Hope today is better for you. emoticon
    1885 days ago
  • GABY1948

    Not sure why I never subscribed to your blogs but I am NOW! emoticon
    1885 days ago
    This is a familiar pattern for me too: being compliant in the face of a lot of stress/temptation and then having my will power wear out.

    Only solution for me is to remove temptations: down the garbage disposal if necessary!

    Good for you, getting right back on track.

    1885 days ago
  • SUNSHINE6442
    The raisin challah...raisins are a concentrated source of sugar...and most likely there is also honey in that as well. Both can raise sugar levels and that may be why you felt ill.

    Keep trying and that old sick feeling disappears with other choices. emoticon
    1886 days ago
  • no profile photo NANITO95
    Well as long as you continue your try!I can relate to what you're saying cause i myself indulged to my "guilty pleasures" this weekend ,but that's alright(for once). I'll put myself on track.You can do it too!Keep up the good work and have a nice day
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  • no profile photo 1HOTFUDGEMAMA
    You can do it! Tomorrow is a new day.
    1886 days ago
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