Thursday, October 15, 2015
Sugar sugar ---remember that jingle? Had a nice beat---And once again it beat me!! We had a funeral in my family 10 days ago so that meant travelling which meant long hours sitting in a vehicle and also meant stress and unhealthy funeral food. So----I cratered, tried to recover and did, for a couple of days and then Thanksgiving came and more hours in a vehicle. Oh yeah, I have all kinds of excuses for letting down my guard and eating all the wrong foods. I can't believe how easy it has been to slip back into my addictive behaviour. The cravings were becoming stronger and stronger. I thought the cravings would eventually go away but I guess 3 months away from sweets isn't long enough. When I go off the track I really go off the track -- nope nothing halfway for me it's full speed ahead at full throttle. I eat, I slip away from exercising, walking goes by the wayside and I don't track my food intake. This usually goes on for weeks and usually I gain every ounce back that was so hard to lose and usually I feel crappy, no energy, lethargic, tired and generally don't care. Please note I said USUALLY. Well, friends, this time it is not going to go as Usual!! I have Spark People, I KNOW I have Spark Friends who are here to encourage me and give me that PUSH. I know that I can do it and doggone it I am going to do it.
This has been a hard blog for me to write cause I didn't want to admit to my Sparklers that I slipped and thought I would just be quiet for a few days then kind of come back unnoticed and thought when I did come back I would have it all together and be back on track and nobody would be the wiser!!! But I don't want to go on for weeks on this crazy merry go round, feeling yucky and all the while gaining weight AS USUAL. Not this time, this time is different, this time I have SparkPeople.
Get off my back old behaviour and find your own ride somewhere else cause I am kicking you to the curb NOW and going forward on my new journey with my Sparklers.
I will update my status daily to reinforce my decision and to keep me honest, to be accountable, to let you, my Sparklers know I am serious, to let you know I am human, that I make mistakes and that I am worthy of your friendship.