I am fat
Monday, November 09, 2015
I never thought I would say something like that...I always thought of myself as curvy.
I don't always work out. I always find an excuse...some of them are very legit (bible study homework, have to work) but I should be able to find time to do some exercise.
I thought about it...am I just plain lazy? Do I just not want to put in the work? I am jealous to a friend who started running last year and has found the love of running. I used to have that...where did it go? I know I can do it. Did I get burned out?
I know what happens when I don't exercise...the pounds and the muffin top are getting bigger. I am afraid to weigh myself on the scale for fear of what it is going to say. Yes eating is 80% of the battle...that is a whole different saga. The saga of me always wanting to eat something...call it a case of not wanting to work, or boredom..but in any case...it's just bad
What do I hope to gain for blogging about this....a wake up call. I am getting into the time of year when I bake for my family..it's what I look forward to every year and they enjoy getting the treats. I do not want to drown...
Thank you for letting me vent...air my problems...I hope I find a solution because it's a cycle that I have been over for far too long