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I am fat

Monday, November 09, 2015

I never thought I would say something like that...I always thought of myself as curvy.
I don't always work out. I always find an excuse...some of them are very legit (bible study homework, have to work) but I should be able to find time to do some exercise.
I thought about I just plain lazy? Do I just not want to put in the work? I am jealous to a friend who started running last year and has found the love of running. I used to have that...where did it go? I know I can do it. Did I get burned out?

I know what happens when I don't exercise...the pounds and the muffin top are getting bigger. I am afraid to weigh myself on the scale for fear of what it is going to say. Yes eating is 80% of the battle...that is a whole different saga. The saga of me always wanting to eat it a case of not wanting to work, or boredom..but in any's just bad

What do I hope to gain for blogging about this....a wake up call. I am getting into the time of year when I bake for my's what I look forward to every year and they enjoy getting the treats. I do not want to drown...

Thank you for letting me vent...air my problems...I hope I find a solution because it's a cycle that I have been over for far too long
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  • no profile photo SKIRUNNER1
    You might like Brooke Castillo's podcast, 'The Life Coach School'. She's really good about feelings and eating. You can do it!
    2056 days ago
    What Ryberb said emoticon She's so smurt! emoticon So glad she's in our corner. Seriously though, it sounds like you're overwhelmed and not sure where to start. Why not try picking just one thing you can do today that will move you toward your goals? Keep it simple, just one thing. Do it today..and then do it tomorrow.

    You are what you believe. Instead of saying I'm fat, tell us what you want to be. Repeat that to yourself every day.
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    2086 days ago
    emoticon The most powerful words are the words that follow "I am"? What you focus on, you feel. Start a new journey of self discovery. Maybe running just isn't for you anymore. Start experimenting with different types of fitness, until you discover something you do you. You have the power to create any reality you desire.
    2087 days ago
    I'm right there with you. Lately I have been procrastinating about my exercise and really need to stop doing that.

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    2088 days ago
    This year, if you are serious about losing the weight, have someone else do the baking for the holidays. Avoid sweets at all cost and you will see amazing results.
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  • TJM1457
    I'm like that too, I use to like exercising. I dont know what happened, I guess life? We need too love ourselves again, not be too hard on ourselves, one meal at a time, one activity at a time, it will happen be patient!
    2088 days ago
    If you want to ease back into running i suggest the couch to 5k program!
    2088 days ago
    One day, one step at a time.
    2088 days ago
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