One Small Sentence
Friday, January 29, 2016
It is amazing to me how one small sentence can send me into a tail spin, depending on who says it. My husband made a very innocent comment, that made me suddenly re-think all the progress I have made, and second guess everything I am doing to lose weight, without even realizing it. We were talking about getting a new car at some point in the future, and I mentioned there was a car I used to have that I wish I still had because I loved that car so much, and he said that I wouldn't fit in that car now. While that is a true statement I guess, although I had never thought about that, it still was unnecessary to say. I said well I don't plan to stay this size forever, why do you think I am doing everything I am doing? I also said that wasn't very nice to say, while it might be true I didn't need to be reminded of it. He sort of shrugged it off, like it wasn't at all important, and I know he was only saying it in a practical, way, in case I had thoughts of getting another car like that, and he did not intentionally hurt my feelings, but the amazing part is that over the next few hours, I began to take that sentence, and blow it all out of proportion, of course. I started thinking wow maybe he can see that I have done this before, and here I am bigger than ever, and maybe I'm not ever going to go the other way, and I never will fit in a car I cant fit in now. I managed to talk myself down off the cliff, to convince myself that he was not thinking of that, and that I AM headed in the right direction, and that all I can do is keep going and he will see. I was not going to let that sentence derail what I am doing and I am not giving up this time.