I'm Doing This On My Own
Tuesday, March 08, 2016
So tomorrow is weigh-in. I had a bad week. I didn't workout and I ate garbage. I don't know why...the only reason I can think of is that it was easier. Doesn't mean it was a good reason but probably the one that works. This morning I was up 1.1 from last week. I guess at this point I'm just hoping that I can stick to the plan today and maintain last week's loss. Fingers crossed.
I realized something this morning as I was analyzing why I did what I did this past week and why I didn't try harder. I realized that no one is going to lose this weight for me. There are no such things as miracles and fairy godmothers and unfortunately I can't switch metabolism's with my husband for a few months to lose the weight. It just doesn't work that way. This is on me.
I know my husband is a great support system but he doesn't really understand...he doesn't have to watch his food..he doesn't have an eating disorder and he doesn't workout. My best friend is moving next month so she will no longer be around...which although makes me super sad will actually help me in my WL journey because she is a REALLY bad influence with my food choices. My old sparkfriend (who is no longer on spark) is like a sister to me and she is also on a weight loss journey but it's not like mine..not to mention she lives in California so it's not like we can workout together or anything fun. I belong to two spark challenge teams for BLC30 and the Seasonal BLC's. But lately I haven't felt very connected to those either. So it's time for me to step up. If I really want to lose this weight, I need to realize that I'm on this journey alone and that I need to do it for myself.
One thing I need to improve on is my time management skills. As a Career Services Specialist, I teach my kids all these different soft skills including time management but then I look at myself and I feel like I never have time for anything...how can I expect these kids to do something I can't even do. So I need to get on a schedule. Every night..I watch TV until I fall asleep on the couch..then my husband either shoos me upstairs or I sleep there till I wake up on my own and muster up the energy to walk upstairs. Either way...it's not good for my sleep. I need to start going to bed around the same time...even though I don't want to.
I also need to work out. I like working out at night but unfortunately, I just don't think that with my schedule it is going to work. I'm always SO tired and I find any excuse I can to not workout. So I am going to attempt to wake up earlier and workout in the morning. I won't be able to go to the gym but I will be able to do some workout DVDs at home.
I am hesitant to start this because on the days my husband works I'll never see him but I need to make the necessary sacrifices to start reaching my goals. Obviously how I've been doing things is getting me no where...so I need to make some changes, no matter how uncomfortable they may be. So here are the changes I am going to try out for the rest of March to see how it goes:
- After calories have been reached, immediately start bed time routine (wash face, brush teeth, floss) So many times I fall asleep on the couch so I forget to do these. Not acceptable anymore.
- Set workout clothes out the night before to make the morning as easy as possible.
- Upstairs by 10...lights out by 10:30 (Sun - Thurs)
- Wake up at 5...workout started by 530. (Mon - Fri)
- Weekends OFF!