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I'm Doing This On My Own

Tuesday, March 08, 2016

So tomorrow is weigh-in. I had a bad week. I didn't workout and I ate garbage. I don't know why...the only reason I can think of is that it was easier. Doesn't mean it was a good reason but probably the one that works. This morning I was up 1.1 from last week. I guess at this point I'm just hoping that I can stick to the plan today and maintain last week's loss. Fingers crossed.

I realized something this morning as I was analyzing why I did what I did this past week and why I didn't try harder. I realized that no one is going to lose this weight for me. There are no such things as miracles and fairy godmothers and unfortunately I can't switch metabolism's with my husband for a few months to lose the weight. It just doesn't work that way. This is on me.

I know my husband is a great support system but he doesn't really understand...he doesn't have to watch his food..he doesn't have an eating disorder and he doesn't workout. My best friend is moving next month so she will no longer be around...which although makes me super sad will actually help me in my WL journey because she is a REALLY bad influence with my food choices. My old sparkfriend (who is no longer on spark) is like a sister to me and she is also on a weight loss journey but it's not like mine..not to mention she lives in California so it's not like we can workout together or anything fun. I belong to two spark challenge teams for BLC30 and the Seasonal BLC's. But lately I haven't felt very connected to those either. So it's time for me to step up. If I really want to lose this weight, I need to realize that I'm on this journey alone and that I need to do it for myself.

One thing I need to improve on is my time management skills. As a Career Services Specialist, I teach my kids all these different soft skills including time management but then I look at myself and I feel like I never have time for anything...how can I expect these kids to do something I can't even do. So I need to get on a schedule. Every night..I watch TV until I fall asleep on the couch..then my husband either shoos me upstairs or I sleep there till I wake up on my own and muster up the energy to walk upstairs. Either way...it's not good for my sleep. I need to start going to bed around the same time...even though I don't want to.

I also need to work out. I like working out at night but unfortunately, I just don't think that with my schedule it is going to work. I'm always SO tired and I find any excuse I can to not workout. So I am going to attempt to wake up earlier and workout in the morning. I won't be able to go to the gym but I will be able to do some workout DVDs at home.

I am hesitant to start this because on the days my husband works I'll never see him but I need to make the necessary sacrifices to start reaching my goals. Obviously how I've been doing things is getting me no where...so I need to make some changes, no matter how uncomfortable they may be. So here are the changes I am going to try out for the rest of March to see how it goes:

- After calories have been reached, immediately start bed time routine (wash face, brush teeth, floss) So many times I fall asleep on the couch so I forget to do these. Not acceptable anymore.

- Set workout clothes out the night before to make the morning as easy as possible.

- Upstairs by 10...lights out by 10:30 (Sun - Thurs)

- Wake up at 5...workout started by 530. (Mon - Fri)

- Weekends OFF!

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  • TINARENEE8462
    Sounds like a good plan. I totally understand about watching tv shows late at night. I have changed my sleeping pattern for about 3 weeks now and I can see a difference. When 8:30 hits i get in bed watch tv and I usually fall asleep within an hour.
    1920 days ago
  • BONNIEMCC488
    Only you can decide what works for you and only you can decide to keep pushing even when the going gets tough. It's hard not having the support you need and want to do something like this. Remember that we're here for you though and rely on us as much as you can :)
    1920 days ago
  • ADF1981
    I've been there. It took me several attempts to lose the weight and I feel like finally it's all very routine. It is incredibly easy to go back to old habits without thinking at first, but I think there is hope because I have so many new and better habits.

    You've got this! I think recognizing what your biggest hurdles are will help you to prepare for them. It's all a big learning game.
    1921 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4516954
    You are not in this alone, I am here for support if you ever need me!
    1921 days ago
  • LANSELMI
    You might be doing the work alone, but you are not alone on your journey! We are all here to help cheer you on when you are doing great and to give you a hand up when you fall down. It is a rough journey, but think of the pay off. Cheering you on girl!
    1921 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14384577
    You got this! Keep your head up! I'm moving closer to your area maybe we can meet up and keep each other motivated.
    1921 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12765175
    You've got this!! you're already planning and thats the first step. You are 100% correct that this is your journey & you need to do it for you, even if its a lonely road. We've got your back on here!

    Keep it up!
    1922 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1540230
    One thing that's helped me get to bed on time is actually setting an alarm on my phone M-F that goes off as a reminder to start the bedtime routine (brush teeth, floss, etc. the stuff that you listed). Try that out for a week or 2 and see how it works for you. =)

    I also sometimes go to bed in my workout gear so I totally have no excuse come alarm time in the morning. Haha.
    1922 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/8/2016 5:02:54 PM
  • ADARKARA
    Getting your workout done in the morning will not only improve your mood throughout the day it will give you more energy at night and hopefully help you sleep better. :)
    1922 days ago
  • CHODGES83
    Routine is key!
    1922 days ago
  • AMY_1217
    This is a great plan Zana! It's hard to be on this journey alone, when you feel such a disconnect. Excuses are so much easier to make than commitments!
    You can do this! I have faith in you!
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    1922 days ago
  • SUN66SHINE
    At least you're not giving up! The key to success is to keep trying different keys until you find the one that unlocks the door to your personal health routine. Good job in keepin' on!
    1922 days ago
  • ALLIE4993
    Girl I can relate to the struggle!! I'm pushing myself to get into the routine of preparing my lunch the night before and picking out my clothes the night before and it's amazing how much it helps! Making the small little changes will make you feel so much better and more accomplished, even just laying your workout clothes out the night before.

    I've seen such a change in myself by being all prepared the night before because I'm not rushing around in the AM frantically trying to get ready and get my lunch packed and the dog fed etc, having those things ready the night before allows me to ease into my morning rather than starting it off being anxious. Another habit I've started to form is if I know I am in for the evening I will wash my face and brush my teeth after dinner so when I'm tired I can just climb into bed and I don't have to worry about it plus by brushing my teeth I don't snack at night either!

    It's going to take some time and some getting use to but I promise you are going to start feeling so much better. One small change at a time will add to a huge change in the future! You can do this!

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    1922 days ago
  • TCTHOMURE
    It is so hard to form the desire to work out. Especially when you have had a rough week. I try to get up and move at commercials. If you need a buddy I am working on losing 100# and 30 years old. I would love to friend you.
    1922 days ago
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