Today Had "Binge" Written All Over It
March 21, 2016
So today, I had the perfect recipe for binge eating... Stress and emotion + tiredness (I didn't sleep well last night) + home alone + rainy day & not wanting to go for a walk
In the past, heck, a couple of months ago(!), any one of those would have sent me to the kitchen to grab a container or box of something ... anything, and hit the couch w/ my feet on the coffee table, and self-sooth.
But not today! My Amazing Nutritionist (that's my title for her) (facebook.com/sharissedalbynut
rition; www.sharissedalby.com), has been working (hard!!) with me to change my habits, including busting this binge eating disorder (?) or habit, and actually has me starting to lose some weight. This lady has invested so much time on me & probably hit her head against the wall countless times, but always comes back smiling & encouraging. And finally - FINALLY - stuff is starting to sink in!!
Thanks to my Amazing Nutritionist, I have a daily plan of food and activities, designed to keep me off the couch and my hands out of the __(fill in the blank)__. And if I do need to snack, I have snacks planned out.
Thanks to my Amazing Nutritionist, I am developing the mindset of self-care, not self-sooth, and even though I didn't want to... Even though I was whiny and tired... Even though I wanted to roll up in a little ball and rock and cry... I got changed, and headed downstairs to our treadmill.
You gotta know something. I HATE our treadmill. I got it off Craigslist, and there are some features I wish it had, and it sometimes slips a little. But more than I hate the treadmill, I HATE what I do on the treadmill. I am a walker. I love going for walks down by the river. I love being in nature. I love fresh air and scenery and time to listen to worship music in my ear buds and think and pray. But if it's raining, I go to the treadmill and am slowly working through C25K. And I gave up TV for Lent, so I don't even have much to look at while I'm on our dreadmill.
But I was on the treadmill today instead of eating away the afternoon. I replaced something that would have filled me w/ regret (not to mention the weight ramifications) with something that felt good and was health and constructive. And I actually feel a little better than I did before I climbed on that thing. Today, I made the better choice! And you wanna know what's funny?? I'm not on the treadmill enough to consistently work on it, but I do the C25K program, just basically for intervals. (It's the only app I actually paid for!). I told you I don't do it much, so I thought today I was doing W1D2 (I did W1D1 last Monday), but I would up doing W2D1!! No wonder it was harder than last week! And I did it (almost)! (I only "ran" 1:00 of the last 2 1:30 running segments.)
Hey, I wanna show you something:
These are the flowers that I "earned" by meeting all my goals last week. These are my 3-days-a-week exercise tulips. If I work out 5 days, I get to buy bigger flowers. I hope to show you bigger flowers next week! But for the meantime, I will really enjoy these!!