In 2014/2015, I made a lot of great healthy lifestyle changes and my mind, body and spirit all benefited. In September of 2015, I started easing up a bit on my changes and my mind, body and spirit responded in kind. I was ready to start fresh in 2016 and then things started to go downhill a bit.
I could go into the whole story, but it's best to sum up by saying that my mother, who had been chronically ill since 1970, got increasingly ill and passed away last Saturday. My husband and I were her primary caretakers and our time spent taking care of her increased more and more towards the end. On top of that, I started a new job when the multiple hospital visits started.
I felt like I wasn't giving anything (my mother, my job, my husband, my health, etc.) the attention they needed. Like other times in my life, my health took a hit. I didn't get sick (hurrah!) but, the healthy lifestyle I had so carefully built, was in shambles.
So, I'm working on a new release. I'm calling her "Michelle 3.0" (Michelle 2.0 was released when I got married, moved to a new city and changed jobs).
Michelle 3.0 doesn't have the same responsibilities as Michelle 2.0. She's not a primary caretaker of anyone (we were never blessed with children). She can focus on herself and her husband (including her husband's health ... he's in this with her thank goodness!)
For the next few weeks, I'll be "unit testing" parts of Michelle 3.0 (checking out various things to see if they should be part of the big release). Yesterday, I went for a job with my husband. It felt great, like running always does for me! Check! Successful unit test! Running is part of Michelle 3.0!
Today, I'm going to work on setting myself (and my husband) up for success on the nutrition front. I have time today to plan my menu for the week, go grocery shopping and cook up some healthy options. I don't have to unit test cooking. I KNOW that will be part of Michelle 3.0 (I still love cooking and I especially love it when I'm making yummy, nutritious options.
Next weekend, I'll be in Detroit for the celebration of my mom's life. There will most likely be some food and drink choices that won't be the best for my body, but they will be the best for my spirit. That's OK! I succeeded before with an "everything in moderation" mantra. That will work again!