RESET changing my way of thinking. 96 days until lab/103 until Dr.
Friday, June 10, 2016
96 days until my next full lab check 103 days until my next med check visit. As of today I am looking at this whole thing differently. I have troubel with food. Period. Not being active, it is food that is my demon. Or lack of self control with food to be more precise. So instead of counting on and on I will start counting down until I get checked next. This is the first 3-4 month check in a couple years because my A1c went so high up so fast. Yesterday was scary. My blood sugar levels stayed in the high 400s. I have been there before but had been able to get them down. My husband even said it was like my insuline wasn't even helping. I have been raising my insulin units per my doctors instructions. Now, when I was tracking my food and watching my carb intake I was doing really well. I felt restricted. I allow myself between 40-60 carbs a day, I watch my fiber and my protein. Those are the main things that are effecting my blood sugar levels. I know where I am supposed to be at with those to make sure my blood sugar behaves itself. I know people say work out and you can eat more...no, that does not work in my case. Yes I work out, but I use that as bonus if anything happens from it. But if I eat more than I KNOW works, my blood sugar goes way wonkey. So, I need to accept what works. Stay with what works. And see how much farther down I can get my A1c by the time I get my labs. My last A1c was 7.8. I have been not eating the best I can for a couple weeks now again. Maybe a count down to my next appointments will help me stay with things. Maybe it will register as more important if I count down to the appointments. I have been counting up the days I come on here and examine my daily stresses and so on. I may still examine those, it is important to see what may cause things to shift.
I have started today off right, and have a food plan for the rest of the day. Doing what works and is right for ME. I want to get back to those 6 month + visits to the doctor, get back on track. Not just to see success in my numbers, but to stay around for my family. If I keep having high numbers I wont be around as long as I want to be. THIS IS IMPORTANT TO ME! I am important. No matter what happens in life, no matter what food is around, no matter what gifts are given, I AM IMPORTANT to take care of and I AM NEEDED to be around for my family. I need to succeed with this. I am capable of succeeding.
My fasting number today was 287. I do test several times a day. I may begin posting those for myself. My goal for today is to get under 200 and stay under 200. Another goal is to have tomorrows fasting number be under 200. Repeat the goals.