Life changes mean I will put me first
Wednesday, August 03, 2016
Wow, it's been a ride. I'm still in a fog. My mother recently passed in June and I had been consumed with her care as well as trying to take care of my own 2 kids and husband for the past few years. Before that, it was my Dad, who passed of cancer in 2010. So all in all, I have been taking care of a lot of other people for the past 12 years......now....it's just my hubby and 1 teenage son, since my oldest is going to college. I feel lost, really lost, like i don't know what to do with myself so I just sit here and stare at the wall. I honestly don't know how to put me first. Sounds dumb,right? I was put on a high dose of antidepressant a year ago and the scale is creeping forward even more, but at this point in my life I cannot see myself without it. Discouraged and defeated is how to put it mildly. I have no direction but I need to find me again. I used to like me......I'd like to like me again. With that being said, I turn again to my Sparkpeople. I know there is the support I need here and all the tools at my fingertips. I need you....I need you all. I simply cannot do this on my own. So, here I go......starting my journey. I hope some of you will walk with me.