What do I want instead?
Friday, November 18, 2016
I listened to IOWL Podcast #2 (link below) a couple times this week. Two things jumped out at me--
* Dreaming is *still* the hardest part for me in all this.
* "What do I want instead" is SUCH a great question.
I guess it's not that I don't have some sort of vision or dream for where I want to be, but it seams to revolve around how I feel, and how I move, and making sure that I don't let the size of my body stop me from doing things that make me happy. And really, I'm happier with pretty much everything these days. It's a bit of a catch-22... My body is bigger than I want it to be, but since I'm not miserable with myself like I was 10-12 years ago, I don't have strong enough away from motivation.
I guess that's where "What do I want instead" comes in. I'm finding it easier in the moment to take a look at what I'm doing and decide if that's what I want (whether it's for this vague long-term dream or for how I want to feel in a few hours) or if there's something else I want instead.
It's not perfect, but the question has been helping me with little choices that add up over time.